F.E.A.R

It's true when they say, as people grow older, they tend to be more fearful.

Fear to speak their hearts out, fear to try new stuff, fear to.. well, almost everything.


When I was in the child care center back then, I talked back to the teacher/principal that my dad will come and beat her with a cane. Then she knows. That got me kicked out from the center.

When I was in standard 1, I confronted the girl who disliked me for no reason because she said I shouldn't wear red accessories on my head but few days later she did the same thing. That got the girl kicked out from school. Well... not quite likely. But she did transferred out for some unknown reason. Don't stare at me. I'm not the one who forced her to transfer out okay.


As we grow older, our fear had grown because we know more.

When kids have no problem singing on stage (some even solo performance), we have problems to speak in public.

While we teach them to say sorry and thank you, we often find it hard to say the same words.



I hardly drive. Few months back when I did, I can just drive and say, just do it. And somehow I can. But what happened few weeks back? I began to have fear. I can't estimate the distant at the other end. Will I bump into the divider? Will the car have scratches again?

I'm not scared of heights. I have no problems looking down from tall buildings. But just the other day, when I tried to take a picture of the gorgeous sunset, and due to angle problem, my camera was dangling outside the barrier in the air. Even with the camera cord hanging safely around my wrist, I began to have fear. Will the camera drop? Will I fall?

I'm not afraid of trying different weird styles and love to dress up when I go to study. Nowadays whenever I take out a 'fashionable' clothes, and when I try it on, I just feel like.. Is it too over? Is it not appropriate?


Funny how people feel more scare as they know more about the world. Where's our courage that we used to have once upon a time?


I just need to dig out my courage back and minimise thinking too much. Like what Nek said.

Or maybe I'm just pure hungry.


Dear God, help me to remember that nothing can separate me from Your love. Please assure me of Your care through the power of Your Holy Spirit.