I'm A Big Big Girl In A Big Big World

For some reason, Nek and I switched roles. I suck in goodbyes, especially during highschool as I left a lot of feelings there. I thought I'll feel sad today as my last day of internship. It's not surprising if I really do because I'm famous for my sentimental personality in highschool.

In the end, look who's crying now? *grin*

Nek was spamming my fb message with crying stickers. Too bad she worked in KL and not in KD like me hehehe. I once told her that I'll mm she dat my company, and she was like lao gai a bit and said they can drop me to have lunch with my colleagues while they go to sing k.

TAK BOLEH LA I MAU SING K ALSO!!!!!


In the end I was in my cheerful mood when I left the office. Not sure whether it was because of the Starbucks Tiramisu Frappuccino® with chocolate chips which made my day, or I had just, well, grow up and start to be better in handling my emotions.

Due to some funny miscommunication, I'd changed my name from Jas to Jess. -.-

Or maybe it was because I can come back and visit them anytime so I'm taking this goodbye for granted. Muahahahaha.


Year 2 Sem 2 had just ended. I have approximately 1 and half year more to go so yeah. Let's not fuss over where to work because my plans always change at the end.

Learned a lot, laughed a lot, bei yan gek sei a lot. All the memories are already been recorded in my diary.

Thanks for everything. Including making me the youngest again (wherever I go I'm always the youngest muahahahaha) and treating me like a really small kid. -.-

But it's okay. I'm a small girl in a big world. Going back to my small world. =]

But I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much

Eh Tu Siapa Nama Ni?

Sigh. After two months of working, my colleagues still cannot remember my name.

So, this is the situation. I have two bosses. One of them is the bank, another one is another party who are Malays. The bank hires me to help them. Or some sort like that.

During the first month, my name changed from Josephine to Lavender to err, budak niiiiii thanks to the Malay side of colleagues. I'm not that kecik la kay.


Anyhow, this is the last month of me doing my intern. One of my colleagues whom I categorised as cool and introvert in the first month of working and then changed my mind asked me questions which were asked during the first 2 weeks like how long are you going to be here? Why are you doing intern? Your course requires you to do ah? Then now you no degree la? After intern go back study?

At first I almost banged my head on the wall because he asked me why am I not getting a broker license? Question marks popped out from my head. Then only I realised. He macam tak tau I'm an intern. :O After all these months of having lunch together. TT So I said that I'll be here doing my intern for 6 months and after that see my manager wants to hire me back as a permanent staff or not (because that's what normal internship should be). And he believed.

I seriously felt like smacking head on the wall. TT

Then another asked how will I celebrate my farewell? Having a BBQ session in my house and invite all of them over? I gave him a face that asked are you planning to celebrate my soon-to-be 21st-birthday? Though there won't be a BBQ session in my house for my birthday celebration, trust me. But I still feel a bit funny hahahahaha.


But then the serious question were asked throughout these few months: So do you want to come back and work here after you graduated?

I seriously have no idea. Being in an investment bank is not something that I had thought before. Bank yes, but commercial ones, not investment.

Then only I realised that, as far and big my dreams seem to be, there must be a stepping stone for me to have before my dreams are achieved. All these while I thought I had make it clear on what I want. But to reach this destination, I need a transport. And what will this transport be?

The first day of the last month being an intern.

I was trying to smile at my best but the pictures appeared were so awful. Kaofu said I looked tired. I was just err, trying to wake up because I was still feeling sleepy. So yea, I was tired. Why la Kaofu you don't take away my mask la ahahaha.

Where's My Spokesperson?

So, it's already 2 weeks.

The excitement has all gone, and I'm no longer having the stranger-stranger-must-treat-them-nicely feelings. Ahahahaha. Got la got la, must respect people la.

On the first day, it was common for people to ask me questions like what are you studying? where do you live? where do you study? and the most frequent asked: why you choose to intern here and not in accounting firms?

Being the newbie and freshie (err I made the freshie word up), I was never too tired to answer all those questions again and again. In fact, being one of the most lor-sor-est person on earth, I can go on and on elaborating my details.

That was during the first week.

Now, the second week. I'm still meeting and having lunch with new people who do not work on the same office level as me, so I still get the same questions. Got a bit bored, and felt like appointing someone to answer my questions for me and that will be my dealer colleagues whom I spend most of my time with. Muahahahaha.

The weirdest question would be since you study Accounting why you choose to intern in a bank and not in accounting firms?

Why weird? Because most of them came from Accounting background and look where are they now? Investment bank.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Music's on, I'm waking up, we fight the fire, then we burn it up

咖啡。因。

今天的心跳，跳得很猛很猛很猛很猛。



都是咖啡因的错。
差点以为开咖啡厅的梦想要泡、汤、了。



其实是我太笨啦。

  

Everytime I see coffee, I have a story to tell.

One Week.

So, I found my access card. Muahahaha.

Basically today was like any other days, attend briefing, do the basic stuffs, make mistakes, kacau dealers.



But hey, it's Friday! No work for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow! Yay! Not that I don't enjoy going to work, but my eyebags are getting worse though I did go to sleep earlier than usual.

Right now, I'm stalking Pianoboy's fb muahaha. And listening to a jazz song which he said is good to put someone to sleep and which.... I think it succeeds because....... *yawn*

How I wish he has a blog and writes about his life as a musician and a Christian. I would like to follow and get some inspiration from him because I'm always so inspired by him! How come there are no people like him in my surroundings one. -.-

Maybe the more you can't get to reach something (or someone) the more you want to reach. And make them be yours. Or, maybe because you know there is someone like him out there but you can't reach him, that's why at any situations he becomes a benchmark, and everyone that you met, you will compare them with him and somehow find them, well, not good enough.

Just a thought, anyway.



Can I be your real life friend?








Okay well, I must be nuts. Gotta go. 

Investment Class

Give you a list of up and down looking graphs, and you will immediately faint. Don't worry, I'll be there to catch you if you fall.

Today, I didn't give problems to my boss muahahaha. Just did a mistake for ONE FORM. And I was very blessed having kind colleagues who don't mind to teach this newbie about investment, starting from the basics, and questions like, what do you understand about shares?

Shares are basically, well, shares. Hahahahaha.

Of course I had to ask whether I interrupt their work or not but since being dealers, your job is to monitor the share market and do some marketing to advice people on which companies to invest and which not to, their jobs are pretty simple. So no, I wasn't interrupting them. Yay.

Got 2 sifus in the end, gave me very details about shares and graphs, and err, candlesticks.

Looking back, I was kinda being ponteng kerja because my bosses could not find me when I was hiding at the counter learning how to be their boss instead to understand shares and whatever they are talking every morning during the half an hour briefing.

Though not long, but at least I get some pictures on the basic stuff. I hate being blur when everyone knows what's going on. Being left out feel so bad. Boohoohoo.


At the every end, I forgot to bring back my access card. Which, I think I left on the tables of my sifus. I hope it will still be there tomorrow. Boohoohoohoohoohoohoo.



Amount of emails to date: 96 unread.

Fatt Mou? Sang Fan Shu?

Just the 2nd day and I'm starting to fatt mou already? Nah, just for today. But seriously, to a person who can't stay still and tak boleh tahan people who don't have initiatives to do work, to experience a time when you have nothing to do for the WHOLE DAY was quite a suffering time for me.

The company is a big company, but the branch is still a new one, hence it's small in size. But because of that, everyone seems to be close to each other, teasing each other like what we are doing now with our close friends. Anyway I got to know and talk to each of them today.

Few of my colleagues already started to ask me how do I feel about the working environment hahahaha. And most of them thought I'm in year 3 because that's when internships should be but for my case, it's an exception.


Indirectly地告诉你，别让你的心回到他身边。此时此刻的他，心里除了梦想，暂时是容不下其他人的。即使有，我们也不会懂是谁，可是很肯定的，那人不是你。不是我在编造故事，是他亲自告诉我。

或许我正在扮演着狠角色，或许你会很讨厌我，说我的人格很虚伪，只是想说，他对你说过的话做过的事，也一样会这样对其他人。在他与你联络的同一时间，也在与我联系，不排除正与好几个人聊着同个一个话题。这是他对所有朋友的一种态度。

男生总不介意与发生过纠结的女生做回朋友，但他们绝不会想提起往事。简单来说，有话题就聊，有共同的兴趣，就做好朋友，以前的事，对他们来说一点也不重要了。

我只是以你的角度来看待整件事，或许我误会了，也或许我的猜测没错。怎样都好，只想说，我不想你再次为了同一个人而受伤。

不要再让你的情绪因为他而上下起伏了。

By the way, at night only I know that sang fan shu means stupid LOL. I mean it means it something like lok dei sang gan. Your roots will stay where they are and you have no way to move, which describes me as nothing to do so no need to move. But okay, I get it. I prefer to be a carrot than a potato. 

Dai Gor Lui?

I'm the one in a million who never really work before, I mean considering the fact that I've already graduated from highschool. Except being a tutor. Okay, so I literally worked before. That's why I feel like urgh, I'm growing up! Dai gor lui jor! It's time for me to have some salary lol. Time to work!


Almost all of us already had a job in hand, except for those who didn't have the initiative to find jobs when we were given so many months to do so. Sigh. People with no initiative and discipline. They make me feel so nervous for them all the time.


I whatsapp my family members all the best in their intern, and Kaomou's case is the funniest among all hahaha. He seriously is an over happy-go-lucky guy lol. Even our Teesside coordinator wished us through Nek hehehe~

Managed to have a bit curls and snapped a pic of them! #throwback

小学毕业后，曾经感到恐慌，因为即将要到中学上课，那是一个我从未接触的环境; 到最候，中学生活成为我人生最重要的阶段之一。

中学毕业后，期待的是没什么校规的大学生活，那是当初的憧憬; 虽然总忙考试忙assignments，可是有他们，我的朋友，我的家人，所以我很享受大学的生活。

明天要开始实习了。有点紧张，很希望我也能享受着这3个月内所学到的一切，更希望我不会在第一天就得罪人哈哈哈。


LIFE STILL GOES ON!

Can't Wait.

For finals to over because after that, I don't have to go to school everyday till September!! Isn't that fabulousssssssssss! *squealing*

That's because I'm going for an internship for the next 3 months. *jumping down from the ceiling*

Goodbye my pillow and bed. I shall miss you. *sob*


But wait, there's some exciting coming up! I have one week of sem break before sending myself off to a bank counting cash and trying to be the King (or Queen) of investment everyday.

I would like to meet Ms ERT for REAL ( we ARE GOING to meet each other this time right -.- ) and try to catch up with my other friends. Maybe Ah Kian will organise another gathering around that time. And also with ZQ they all.

Yesssss, it's all about catching up catching up catching up. With people.


And also something that I would like to start, long time ago. I will not say anything yet, because there's nothing to be told, and just few of my friends know what is going on, but I sincerely hope for God's blessings and that this, will work and lead to success. Therefore there will be meetings else where.

Because of this thingy, I've been doing some secret stuff training. Hehehehehe.




Maybe for once, I should start wearing high heels. Try to stand with them at least. You know, maybe, just maybe, I can try a mere 4-inch ones?

The Good Times

Let's start with internship. I went for a 2nd interview, which is in Kota Damansara, and I got the job. Certainly I will go for this as it's nearer. DO YOU KNOW HOW JAM IT IS THROUGHOUT THE JOURNEY TO ONE UTAMA EVERY MORNING.

Mummy wanted to belanja Mama for taking care of me and keeping me out of troubles in school. Nah, for fetching me back every Mondays and of course, for helping me sooooo much. Mama was reluctant at first, but after being pushed by me, he said let's just go to McD.

In the end I was abandoned by the 2 of them and had no space to interrupt. =[
Mostly it was because Mama is so the lor-sor. Even Mummy said that too. Hahahahaha!


The best news of the month: Gorgor (my cousin bro, not Oppa Crocodile) finally came back from Korea. We had been worrying about him since last year due to no news from him at all. We had a small family reunion and I can just say, gorgor, 你肥来liao!

Yes this mischievous boy went all the way to Korea without a word!

Went for the annual makeover event in One Utama. I think my makeup is by far the most glamorous makeup I have. And I kinda look like an Indian girl. Bahahahahaha.

And and and, I had lunch with Hez!!!! Which is of course a last minute decision. I mean, who are we talking now? It's Hez!! Mana boleh ada schedule punya? =P

My Ah Nek, Ah Ma and Ah Yi all purposely passed by our table, look see look see 笑眯眯 then went back to their place. Sigh.

听歌，与看歌词听歌，真的会有不同的感觉。

A Start. An End.

Today papa and mama accompanied me to One Utama for my internship interview. Boardroom Limited located in KPMG Tower, which is just next to One World Hotel.

At first it was just papa, then mama decided to come along too, so, yay!!! So the happy ahahaha.

They really treated me like their daughter. Kept on patting my head~ kept on saying my dear my dear~ when I wanna pay for their breakfast they said I can treat them back when I earn my income~

Hahahaha. Where can you find friends like that! xD

The interview was quite smooth, nothing much, just asked some general questions, and err, I got the job. The HR manager told me that they don't set much criteria for interns. But I had to politely request to hold on as I still wanted to wait for RHB OSK to reply me because it is nearer, just Kota D'sara. One Utama everyday very the jam one ohhhhh.

Thank God she said okay, will be waiting for my reply next month.

Smooth huh. I'm just concern that I was being rude and not sincere enough to accept the job.


Anyway, I got a feedback about my law assignment from my lecturer, she said it's around above average, pray that I will get quite good result overall after I finish everything. My Business Law assignment's mark was so so bad. :\

I was feeling pretty good all day, just a bit tired.




At 10:30pm ++, the news of ending the search for MH 370 appeared on tv.

Out of sudden I understand why I felt so emo and upset yesterday. Poor Nek, being the guinea pig.

Felt so.... sad now......