Face-to-Face

There was a joke last time, on Papa saying he face-to-face talked to one of the members of APink. His definition of face-to-face is Facebook-to-Facebook actually.

For me, I'm still considered a traditional person because perhaps of my interests in writing, I cherish the feeling of being able to see, touch, smell, hear and taste. Not cold, frozen text messages through phone.

I certainly cannot live my life with just a phone. I love face-to-face communications.

I can't just connect with someone that I'll contact everyday though text messages only, especially if this person is a significant person.

If I can't see you personally, I would at least want to hear your voice, or see your face through video calls. Not just text messages.

If I video call you, I would expect you to talk to me, share your happenings of the day besides listening to me talking.

But it just makes me sad that you can just multitask, watching videos from FB rather than looking me at the eyes while listening to me talking.

I'm still in Malaysia, yet to go to Singapore.

If this is what I get when I haven't even leave Malaysia, what will I expect when I leave the country?

I don't understand why the contrast is so big, comparing now with few months ago. We are not even those couples of 5 years relationship where they already get used to each other.

If the basic things can't be done to maintain the feelings of the relationship, what is there left? What's the point of me holding on when it's only me who's trying to make efforts? Why saying simple things like thank you, good morning, be sincerely happy for me, giving encouragement, seem so difficult?


Sometimes I wonder are we with the wrong person that's why it seems so difficult to do things that normal couples do.

Or I'm just dating with myself, after all.