The Things.

That I Promised Myself To Not Say, Which I Did Not.

I told myself to not compare my bf with other guys. I did envy other girls when they were showered with gifts and effort, but I managed to not say things like "you see that guy hor blah blah blah" or "yer that girl so nice got this and that from her bf". Because in social media nowadays you can see the nice things going on but not the not so nice ones. So no point of saying out loud. Envy and keep in heart will do.

I also told myself to not simply say break up like those young girls just to throw tantrum and want their bfs to appreciate them more and treat them nicer, and then reunited with their bfs. I'm too old for that. I don't want to waste my time saying things like these. Of course, the only time I did is because I meant it.


That I Didn't Manage To Do.

I kept telling myself to at least try for a year, regardless of the problems. But I just couldn't continue anymore. And this is something that made me feel a bit regretful because I didn't make it to being official. But that doesn't mean that I regret leaving. I can even try to play by ears on piano for Adele's Hello a day after the break up. It just means that I have no hope in this relationship anymore. Just that the thought of breaking up before being official just doesn't make any sense to me because we weren't even official. LOL. Of course, the only reason why I didn't go back is because my love to him is not enough for me to do so. It had decreased over time, over the disappointments and tears, and I felt that I had reached my own limit.


That I Regretted Thinking.

I regretted underestimating my friends' relationships. I glanced through 3 other relationships and they either lack of parents' support or friends' encouragement. I had both. I was proud of it and believe that we'll last the longest. In the end, our relationship ended first while others continue to survive.

It made me thinking what went wrong. And then I realised that it's because in other relationships there are obstacles that's why both parties are willing to work hard on it. We just take it coolly as if we'll make it to the end for sure.



There's no such thing as long-distance relationship. The only distant in a relationship is the distant of 2 hearts. That's why people who see each other still break up. That's why people who are in different parts of the world manage to survive even without seeing each other for a year or so.

A guy dated with his gf for 8 years, and 5 years being apart. They managed to survive their relationship and the test, and they are engaged now.

A pair of highschool senior lovebirds of mine recently shared something in FB. They dated publicly after they graduated from highschool and I actually thought they broke up already, with one in U.S.A and another I think in Australia.

Guess what. They are still dating. After so many years.

Click on this link to read more of what had happened.

Still the same theory. Because both parties are willing to make effort and that's what makes their love grows.

As much as I envy girls who got flowers, rings, chocolates, the chance to travel together and countless things, the thing that I envy and admire the most is couples who are willing to sacrifice their time for their love ones. 16 hours apart time difference. How many of us are able to make it? Everyday see each other also can break up, let alone having more than 10 hours of time difference.


Whether love comes first that's why there's effort, or effort comes first which is then converted into love, I don't know. But I know that they come in a package.

Father, may Your words be more than nice sayings to us. May they be written on our hearts so that we will love You and others.