Flow

Lately I've been seeing things way lot different.

Just like last week, when I was an hour late for training in Pudu because the MRT bus was off the schedule, and the MRT stopped longer than it should at every stations.

Instead of feeling panic, I was quite chill and felt like, okay la, since I'm late already, nevermind la, 5 mins and 10 mins late don't make a difference.

Especially when I'm always so much earlier than others every single day, I feel like I have the rights to be late for a day hahahahaha.

Of course I got a little panic when I had just one more station left to reach my destination, thinking oh c'mon, just move and I'll be alright, doesn't matter if the MRT stops for very long again in the next station because well, I wasn't in it so it's alright hahaha!!

And when I took the MRT bus to the station I had the chance to look out and just you know, really absorb whatever I see, rather than looking at my phone and of course, sitting in a bus gives you better view outside because it's higher than normal vehicles.

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Whereas regarding my job, I've found the solution in handling stress, which is to equip myself more with techniques and knowledge, and also to find out customers' needs rather than trying to sell something. Prayers work too, as I ask for joy and passion in my workplace knowing that God will provide me whatever I need to fulfill the purpose that he has placed me there.

Also, working effectively and efficiently is very very important because that means no staying back, as I already done the things that I should do during working hours, and that I can have more time with my parents. I do realise that I have done very minimal housework helping them out since I started this job, making me feeling guilty because by the time I have my dinner and bath, it was quite late and I will spend remaining hours doing my own stuff which includes doing homework for work.

And when I have more time, I can sleep earlier and get more energy in the next morning otherwise I will feel super grumpy going to work wondering if I could just stop working and sleep all day long.

But to date, I still fail to go back on time, spend more time with parents, help them out with housework and sleep more as I still feel that I can spend more time in office using the system to do things that I need to do and of course, your work will never ever end.

That is why I need to learn more, learn faster, just to be more efficient and productive. I want to enjoy my working life as much as I enjoy my life knowing that this is God's gift for all of us.

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They say that working in bank is very pressure. I totally see the reason why, but I also look up to those who made it to the top and feel that if they can do it, there must be a reason why I can do this long term too.

As long as I understand the purpose why God put me here, there will be no mountains that we can't move.