To You

Dear you,

It was an extremely hard journey, from the preparation of SPM, till it ended, and yes, it ended, just like that.
With no tears, nor sadness, but a relief, that it was finally finished.

The graduation this time to you was nothing compared to the primary graduation. Was it because you still get the chance to keep in touch with your friends, now that all of you have a FB account? Or is it because all of you will be gettin' a license soon, and you guys can see each other as often as you want, as long as you still wanna see each other?

Anyways, it was a relief, indeed. But you know that deep inside your heart, you'll always have them in you, and that you'll never forget the times when you laughed and upset and mixed with other feelings together with your close ones.

Last Thursday was a day when you got a lil bit, a lil bit something that you can remember.

You saw him on9 in FB, you wanna say hi to him a long long ago but you were afraid that he'll ignore you, or that he will just misuderstand that you still like him, yeah, you were kinda afraid.

But you started the conversation in the end. With a " Hi! How's college?" and a bit nervous.

Nervous? And you were wondering why. But, just a bit. No big deal.

You waited and waited, just maybe for one or 2 mins, he replied, plus a question which asked you 'bout your exam.

You were taken aback for a while, never thought that he'll ask you, and that was the time when you chatted with him like old friends, when in reality you guys never talked more than 10 times and never really had a conversation at all in school before.

And you chatted, and chatted, and chatted.

For an hour. Because of him, you were on9-ing for 2 hours! Gosh. How could you! You chatted with him for an hour, quarelling with him for a while before he asked you how was your holidays, and before you scared him by saying that you were Jan-born and still you haven't got your license yet.

It was not until 12 am when you ended the conversation by asking him to wish you good luck for undang test the next day. And with a good night and bye, plus a sarcasm that said he typed very slow. Haha.

You also asked for his opinion 'bout the 50% that you got. You were not sure whether to take it 1st or wait until the results come out. You were so unsure, and he gave you a few opinions, though not quite helpful, but hey, at least he did try to help, so girl, please appreciate.

You were glad, that no awkwardness were present throughout the conversation. Yeah... Awkward. That's what you were worrying the most. But no, and you were glad.

You know that he'll be there if you need his help for the tertiary studies thingy. And girl, you make the right decision when you started the conversation with him.

Ok, enough 'bout him. Talking 'bout the scholarship, the feelings of contradiction pours in, and it's just like the situation when you wanna learn piano and guitar at the same time.

You gotta keep your fingernails short for piano, but for guitar, you gotta keep them long.

Oh man, you thought, you still gotta take time to think properly before making any decisions.

And the guy whom you promised to give him a feedback after reading his letter or whatever you called it, you already typed a draft and saved it in your blog, but there's still another feedback that you would like to give him, so you still haven't publish the 1st feedback. You give yourself the deadline before 2011 ends. And that means, you just have one more week left.

One more week, it also indicates that you'll leave this place soon. Yes, just one week, and you'll be outta here. And you desperately miss this place.

You promised yourself to have a great day outing with your VVVIPs this Wednesday, and you know that you'll cherish it, like always. So, off you go, the drama is waiting for you.

Just wanna let you know, whatever happens, you know that you have your close ones, be it your family, or your friends beside you, to help you, to support you, and to pick you up when you're down. So, appreciate them and never take them for granted. 2011 is going to end soon, and I hope that it'll be a perfect ending with a fabulous start, 2012. Smile always, will 'ya. =)

In this post, you, is me. =)