Words

These 2 months are a roller coaster for me. Not related to my career, God has somewhat helps me to stabilise my job to face another challenge.

The “do not judge” challenge.

It all started when my colleagues knew that I was away during CNY, not accompanying my parents but I went to Husky’s hometown instead. They were shocked. Like, really. They made a huge fuss until I felt 莫名其妙 and 委屈 at the same time. What in the world are you guys thinking?

I tried to explain, but it made things worse. I felt so, so terrible that day. Other than being stress for work and used to be stress with my mum regarding my job, I’ve never felt this terrible before.

It’s like I was drowning, and nobody was there to rescue me. Things got worse when I was being lectured by my boss, and I was so disappointed till I had no emotions left.

I kept asking myself, the definition of being a good daughter. How does not spending CNY with my parents made me a bad daughter? So all the good things that I’ve done as a good daughter were instantly swept under the carpet and are not surfaced anymore?

I just felt so bad, so terrible. Having the pressure of being the only child in the family is stressful enough and I had to force myself to not overpressure myself, and yet this statement? Am I really a bad child for not spending CNY with my parents? Am I?

Besides the emotional side, my rational side also got me thinking: Have I ever judged other people when I do not know the whole story? The answer is yes.

One of God’s commandments is do not bear false witness. As humans, we often perceive what is on the surface. Those worldly eyes... when will we learn to see things the way God sees things?

After 2 weeks, I thought I had put this incident aside, until that day I just broke down and cried for more than an hour in front of Husky (poor him, see me cry almost every weekend ahahaha) and didn’t know the reason of crying. Until I stopped crying and realise that I didn’t let go of this incident at all. I was holding the grudge, the resentfulness inside me was so deep that it’s eating me up. I was angry, upset with my colleagues. I understand that they were concern over me, but their concern made me worse, and my boss being his usual self, did not ask for more details but had labelled me straight. I was disappointed because as a boss I had expected him to have more mature thinking by not judging, but...it’s him. So yeah.

I didn’t tell my mum about this incident until one day, she was sad over an old incident. Only I spilled it out to her, she said it was very ok for me to go to Husky’s hometown, and my colleagues were just not understanding because CNY to us is nothing, especially when my grandparents are not here anymore, and Christmas is more important in fact. Trust me, my CNY holidays are always so dull it looks like an extended weekend because I’ll be going to the places where I go usually during weekends.

I kept having this resentfulness towards one of my colleagues because I had told her not to tell my boss but she still insisted. I felt that she did not respect me as a colleague or even friend. Until that day I read Mark 11:25 - And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”

It’s so tired if you’re having this grudge onto someone. I hate that feeling so much, because it seems that no matter how good that person treats you, everything just seems so wrong. It seems like God is nudging me to have courage and talk to her bout this situation, because the following week we need to work together as a team. So I waited for the right opportunity, and I spilled how I felt to her, and she told me her opinion as well. 

Conclusion was, nobody is wrong in this picture, just that our directions are different, I wouldn’t want to force them to accept my situation, at the same time I wouldn’t like it if they use their ruler to measure my shirt, which they did. Lol ok that’s a direct translate from a Chinese proverb.

I still do make quick judgments/statements nowadays, but I’ve learnt to stop my thoughts quickly, and try to think in a different way. Sometimes I still need people to remind me, I still do. But I think that in this season of life, God wants me to learn on not judging people with my worldly eyes. And to offer as a listener and show compassion to people who are upset for being misunderstood. 

I always say this, and I still do: being a Christian is not easy at all. Especially when I’m still not walking the ways God wants us to walk, and I’m still not being able to show the love and compassion God wants us to show. Especially to Husky. How is he going to accept Christ when I'm not doing the right thing? With my bad explanations on certain things, sometimes he misunderstood Christianity but I’ve failed to let him see the clearer picture. 

Nevertheless, it’s a good lesson for me to guard my mouth and be wise with my words. And also I wouldn’t know that Husky is so protective to me that he wants to sort things out with my boss HAHA. Being someone who doesn’t like to trouble others, this is indeed a different side of him. 😝

“God wants you to know that sometimes God allows us to go through certain difficult times, even as a result of wicked actions by others. Yet whatever we have to endure, no matter how unfair or unjust , we can be sure that God will use it for good.”

Review of 2019

So I’ve summarised a list of  top 18 things that had happened in 2019.

1. My mum finally let me drive!
It’s not really a thing to remember but for someone who only gets to drive when she’s 25 year old, this is definitely something that I want to record it down. Thanks to my persistence of not leaving my current job, I was forced to speak to my mum about driving and my mum was forced to let me drive. Haha. Indirectly force la ok. Also she has let me fetched her few times to shopping malls, dropping her off while I went to my appointments and fetched her back home. It’s a good sign! 🥰

2. In total I travel to 9 different places, which includes 3 different countries and 4 different local states. First I went to Kuantan for company kick off in Jan, Hanoi during my birthday while following my dad to work, but it wasn’t a pleasant trip actually 😅 Then in May, I went to Hokkaido with my parents! Otaru was the place I love the most in the whole trip. In June I went to Johor, Husky’s hometown for the 1st time, meeting his parents for the 1st time as well ngehehe #nervous, and also I went to Bangkok with my colleagues (semi-free trip by Allianz as I accidentally hit the challenge haha) Then in October I went to Malacca, local trip with parents after all these years of not going to local for holiday, and went to Krabi for company trip again, this time is for Halloween! Almost all of my colleagues went and it was very very fun. From walking the streets with our Halloween costume to island hopping and conquering the whole swimming pool for monkey games, it was just so, so fun. And in November, I went for a team review trip in Penang. It was ages since I went there as well, but other than getting massage, all I remember was overused my brain for review purpose. Haha. But of course, it was a fruitful trip as it helps me to understand myself better. The next day I arrived in KL from Penang, I got to pack and depart to Phuket the next day! Everyone was saying that I might as well sleep in airport hahaha #mymumplansone

3. After 25 years, finally I started indoor wall climbing. It was a childhood dream come true. I wanted to climb when I was small, and I remember having the chance to try in a shopping mall (which I think is also in One Utama) but I didn’t because I was wearing long skirt. Actually it didn’t matter because it was just a short climb, probably I was afraid back then. And this year Nek wanted to try, so both of us went for Camp5’s Basic Wall Course and started to climb. By the end of the year, even Husky tried it because of his friends. Somehow I like bouldering more. Maybe not as mafan as the Top Rope where you need a person to belay you, and not as scary as the Autobelay because when you come down, you fly down. I mean free fall. IT IS SCARY. 😖😫 Maybe i should try Bump in Jaya One next year.

4. After 3 years of dating, finally I met Husky’s family! Road to Johor was tiring, even when I’m not the one driving. Haha. I was kinda worried that I can’t mix with his family but the 1st thing that his mum said when we arrived was: “神经病啊你，回来没有讲!” [You siao ah, come back never say!] Then I also echo her words, saying ya la he la, don’t want tell you he’s coming back. But thank God they are very nice to me and I feel just like home with them.

5. I moved out from my house. A week. To opposite street. Husky’s house. HAHAHAHAHA. Pardon me for laughing for running away from home, that time wasn’t funny at all. But now to think of it, IT IS FUNNY. Because I packed 5 luggages, and moved to Husky’s house which is just opposite street. And because when I moved out my parents weren’t at home, so when I came back with 5 big luggages my mum looked me at one kind. 🤣 Reason of moving out is work related of course. But we eventually managed to overcome it. ☺️

6. Did I mention that I travel to 9 different places? Actually I was wrong. It was 10 places! If you considered hospital as one of them. 😏 So I was diagnosed with dengue, and hospitalised for 6 days. My total bill for 6days5nights were around RM 15k, technically one of the finest “hotel” that I ever stayed in. It was terrible, but at the same time I felt grateful. Terrible because I needed to take 4 times blood test a day to monitor my white blood cells and platelet count, sometimes the nurse can’t find my vein and cause super pain and blue black to me. It was terrible also because I was so itchy I couldn’t sleep, literally scratched myself to sleep; and the dripping machine beeping sound was my worse nightmare. Grateful because I had appetite to eat after the 1st day of admission, I know I’m going to be well soon but it all depends on my report. Also grateful because I survived. A friend’s  friend and a lawyer of our company passed away due to dengue not long after my discharge. It was creepy to hear the news, being a survivor of the same condition.

7. I changed my phone! It’s a small thing but it’s still a good thing. The phone I want was out of stock and we went to few places before managed to get it in The Gardens.

8. For the 1st time I watched concert in Genting with my parents and Husky and also my colleagues. It was free tickets by the way, and the singer wasn’t someone very famous but it was a good experience anyway.

9. My parents experienced trees fallen on their car when they were coming back home during a rainy day. The windscreen cracked, the side mirrors were broken, couldn’t start the car either, thank God for people who came and helped to remove the fallen branches, one even took a parang and chopped off thicker branches. Thank God my parents weren’t hurt, and thank God for angels around them. 😇

10. After the fallen trees incident, while my dad was waiting for the car to be fixed, he ended up being promoted and gotten another new company car. God’s timing is always perfect. :’)

11. Husky got a full time job! At least now his life is better than before. :’)

12. One of our extended family members got himself a major trouble and is currently serving his punishment while waiting for results, but at least he’s protected.

13. Dad got a free MiBand 3 from lucky draw!

14. I got closer to Bernice this year, probably due to similar family background and we are also MRT kakis haha!

15. Husky and I attended 2 weddings this year, one is my ex-colleague and another is his badminton friend. So many of our friends got hitched this year. But 2 weddings are enough la haha #toomanyredbombs

16. Met up with my high school buddies, Hezrin and Auni after 5 years OMG. These people ah, need to force them out from house one only they are willing to come out and see me. #willseethemagaininnext5years 😒

17. This year is a gadget year as Husky gave me a power bank and hard disc as gifts for me this year haha!

18. FINALLY IN A MILLION YEARS I SEE COLOUR ON MY HAIR! Got my hair dyed brown in salon for the 1st time. Last 2 times I used self-dyed bubble wash but I need to be under the sun only can see the colour. I wasn’t sure whether I like my new hairstyle either at first, but it was okay after that.

So these are my top 18 highlights of 2019. Hope that 2020 will be a better one as I get rid of my weaknesses and use them as my strengths! Changes aren’t easy but it helps in growing. Especially when I’m turning 26 next year! Feel like turning into 30 anytime soon. 😂

Mask

Often time I feel that I’m wearing mask all the time.

At work I need to be very careful with my words, being said by seniors that the words that came out from my mouth offends people a lot even though 99% of the time I don’t mean it. Left 1% is when I mean it but people don’t feel offended haha.

I just hate to think talking in a nicer way. I just want to express what I want to say. Too bad in the sales industry, you need to think how to say it the way people want to hear it. Then only people will trust you and build relationship with you.

At home I too need to be careful. When sales are good, I hide it as it’s not constant, trying to avoid my parents from setting a high expectation of me that I’m doing super good; when sales are bad I hide it because well... we all know it. So I’m trying to be as neutral as I can.

When I’m alone, I just want to do my things quietly. Watch tv, read a book.

Only when w Husky I can be myself. Though, I’m not that sure whether he’s 100% himself when he’s with me or not. Hahahahaha.

Nevertheless, this is life and all of us have a role to play. I’m constantly trying to improve myself on focus. Not to distract myself easily with WhatsApp messages unless it’s an urgent call.

Fat Liao!

This is the remark I got lately.

I already felt it when my usual shorts got tighten, I almost want to blame the washing machine for shrinking my shorts.

Husky got fat as well hahahahahaha he’s gotten rounder and chubbier hehehe. Our friends tease him when we met up last month for a drink, and now every time I see him I got to rub his belly as if he’s pregnant haha!

I would like to take up a No Sugar Challenge to see if I can lose weight or that my skin complexion will be getting better but..... that means I can’t eat 99% of food in the world. Sigh.

Of course I’m starting to do some light workouts on abs to minimise my tummy. But see how far I’ll go on this workout journey. Haha.

Last quarter is already here, and I still remember telling Husky that my goal is to keep fit for new year resolution, and look where did my goal went. Into the drain. Tsk. 

Gotta stay healthy now! Else there will be lotsa problems as we get older. Am sounding like an old woman, ain’t I? 🤣

Dengue

So I was just discharged from hospital last Friday due to dengue. I was never admitted to hospital other than 2 times when I was a baby (I was born in a hospital, and I was admitted for fits when I was really small).

Visited my grandparents in hospital while they were still around, but basically that was my experience going to hospital.

Oh, watching tv dramas don't count, do they?

So when I almost blackout twice, my parents sent me to hospital and I felt very frightened. It's like, there will be needles poking me, doctors telling me bad news on my report.

I called Husky to notify him that I might need to be admitted to hospital, cried once. He came to visit me while I was still in emergency ward, cried twice. On day 3 the nurse couldn't find my vein but still die die want to take my blood, it was so pain I cried the third time. In front of Husky also.

This story tells us that Husky is always there when I cried. Or that he was there, that's why I cried. So he shouldn't be there. Sure something bad will happen one HAHAHAHA!

Okay just kidding.

Basically what happened to me was, nurses barging in for BP and temperature checks every 2 hours, blood test every 6 hours, staffs barging in for various reasons such as deliver newspaper, deliver 4 meals, clean the room etc etc. So I had a lot of visitors. Hahahaha. I had much rest during the afternoon, at least not so many staffs coming in and out. But I always had phobia when I saw nurses coming in with a trolley. I would always ask, nak ambil darah ke? Sometimes it was just BP checks, so I was relieved. As I totally lost what was the time, I always had to ask the question. And bringing the drip thing in and out is very mafan thing.

I appreciate my freedom a lot after that. To be able to move around freely without my new pet (the drip thing?), and to be able to use my right hand freely, because bending in different angle will cause my hand to feel pain. Oh btw I had trained my left hand to bath and even wash hair on its own LOL.

The meals, for first few days I was pretty excited to choose my own food. After that my appetite just dropped (I'm scared of brown rice now!) and my food choice was nasi lemak and potato wedges. Hahaha so not healthy.

Husky visited me every night, my parents came in twice a day (must be super hectic for them 😩😩😩), Nek visited me once, she even wanted to barge in and wake me up but too bad I was already awaken (thanks to the usual BP checks). My colleagues wanted to visit me but somehow I felt lazy to meet them. It's like, I didn't have a good rest and I don't know which exact time you'll be reaching, and I certainly don't want to wait for you. So I might as well just sleep and ask them not to come. Hahahaha.

But finally after 6 days I was allowed to be discharged!! My legs felt weak, because all I did was eat and sleep for whole week. No places for me to walk around also. And thank God for medical card! Can't imagine sharing my room with another patient, who might bring his or her kampung to visit (and even overnight!) there.

This flower has a funny story. So it was supposed to be my 3rd anniversary with Husky, and he already placed order for this flower on Thurs, and to give me on Sunday (our anniversary was on following Wednesday). Mana tau I go masuk hospital, and he had to give me in hospital, which becomes gift for a patient more than for anniversary purpose. Hahahaha!

Basically end of my dengue story. 😁

Stickerrific

After church me and Husky went to Damansara Jaya to get my contact lens and we went to Jaya One to get my brush pen.

The first time I went to Jaya One was the first time I accompanied Husky for his badminton session on Sundays. That time was like almost 2 years ago. Wow hahahahaha.

We had difficulties finding the shop Stickerrific as there are so many blocks in Jaya One. The customer service guy directed us to a place where we can only see abandoned buildings. I mean buildings which are currently undergoing renovation hahaha. We went a few levels up, feeling a bit eerie because basically there was noone there and I felt like we just entered some ancient places.

Finally we found it! And the environment is so much different than the abandoned buildings. It's like a totally different world by itself. Full of pretty and various types of stationery until I just want to buy the whole shop and bring it back home hahahaha.

After talking to the girl in charge, I bought this:

Supposedly I wanted to buy something cheaper than Tombow which cost RM10.60 but ended up buying this dual colour brush pen which cost RM 14.00 haha. But it's so much different than the Miniso brush pens that I bought. In China. 3 for ¥ 10.00. Which is like, RM 6.00. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

There's a cat in the shop too, and when I first saw it I thought it's from Japan. Really good quality cat haha!

Credits to owner (Got it from Google Image)

Such a pwettie cat, isn't it? xD

Can check out their website Stickerrific before you decide to go to their physical shop!


In the evening I went to Pr Eric's house with around 15 more other young adults age ranging from 24 - 27 years old. It was for dinner and also discussion on what we are concerned with our lives right now, be it at work, relationships, ministry in church and also financial planning.

I found it really, really useful and appreciate Pr Eric for organising such gathering to listen to our opinions, especially when the issues that we face are real-life, and the very in-depth discussion just show that we are not the only ones facing these challenges in our lives.

By the way, this was my dinner and dessert. I'm so gonna get one mini waffle-maker in the future! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Homemade (not by me) spaghetti with grilled chicken and salads!

Waffle with ice cream, Hersheys chocolate cream, white chocolate, and a mini fruit tart!

Such a day well spent! 😄😄😄

The Greatest Showman

Since it's my birthday month, I have 2 free movie tickets from MBO and GSC.

And since a lot of people told me that The Greatest Showman is a very nice show plus the fact that it became an asterisk movie me and Husky went to GSC to watch this show.

We went into the cinema without knowing anything about this movie. The only thing I know is it has Hugh Jackman in it. Haha. 

Turned out that it is a musical, and a story about a man who wants to give his family everything that he can but when fame and money blinded his eyes, he made wrong decisions and everything goes wrong. Of course the ending was a good one, but it did remind me of what we really need in life.

All of us want a comfortable life, but when it becomes too comfortable we tend to reach out for more. More money, more success, more fame, more respect, until one day we are blinded by our own desires and become a fallen star.

From the book 1 & 2 Timothy: Watch Your Life and Doctrine which I'm reading lately,

"People who want to get rich face many dangers to their souls, they were not contented with what they already had but wanted more and more. What drove them was the love of money which is the root of all kinds of evil.

Money can be a potent instrument to be used for the good of others, but it can also overpower us and become our master. It can become our god."

The OSTs of the whole movie are really great. A simple yet touching movie with great songs. :D

One of my fav is Never Enough by Jenny Lind (Loren Allred)

Especially the scene where Jenny realised that Barnum never really fall in love with her, and was only impressed with her performance, and so she was left heartbroken because she had fall for him. I do think the way Barnum looked at her the first time he saw her sang is really like falling in love with her. Or maybe Hugh Jackman's really a good actor hahaha. 

The last time I watched his movies was Logan, where he was dead at the end. Such a big contrast between Wolverine series and musical movies. 

Take Eat Easy

Today my schedule is so fulfilled! After church service I attended Bible Study with the rest from 12.30pm to 1.30pm, and they were discussing on where they want to have lunch, so time was a bit delayed here.

I was a bit gan jeong as I needed to attend Assimilation Track at 2.30pm, but I only reached the Korean Restaurant (super long time didn't eat Korean food already!) around 2pm. There were about 10 of us having lunch together, and I was sweating because the rice is hot, and the soup is hot, and I think the air-conditioned was spoiled. I couldn't feel any coldness at all!

Alright, I think it's because I was in a rush hahaha. Tansra was very kind by fetching me back to church, and then she drove back to the restaurant to finish her lunch.

After the Assimilation Track was the Water Baptism class. Just an half hour briefing, by the time the class ended Poh ah Poh and Ah Kian were already waiting for me.

The funny thing was after I walked to the outside of Sin Choi Wah Restaurant to get in the car, they decided to just have their breakfast/lunch/tea time/dinner at Take Eat Easy. Instead of waiting for me they can just straight wait me there and order their food first while I don't need to walk down to Sin Choi Wah! Hahahaha they found it so funny too.

Me and Ah Kian~

Such pretty picture!

So we chatted from 5.30pm up to 9pm, catching up with each other and listening to each other's funny stories. When I called Husky to inform him that I'm ready to leave, he told me that he was just behind me. I turned around and saw noone. But it turned out that he was enjoying his coffee and reading novel while waiting for me once he reached the place. I smacked him non stop (my way of saying hi to him, and my reaction whenever it's sad happy angry excited whatever emotions I'm having :P) and said that he drink coffee bojio. :P

I was really surprised to realise that he was there for at least half hour without me noticing him. Even when I passed by the place he sat to pay the bill! But it's scary also because it feels that somebody is stalking meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ :P

Can't wait for October to come as there are so many activities going on! :D

Stuck with You

I remember attending Melanie and Pr Daryl's wedding, and Pr Eric said something about his wife was very annoyed with his things putting all over the places because he simply puts them, and that those things don't have legs and won't walk to the place where they belong.

And then she said, but no matter what, we are stuck together okay.

I don't know how many people will be able to say these words, even sometimes I also have doubt with myself whether I can really stick with Husky, especially when some of his bad habits surface which I cannot tahan one.

It might sound pathetic to some, that we don't allow ourselves to have a choice to leave when we cannot tahan our partners, because we are stuck with each other. But if leaving is a backup plan, then how many partners we need to have, in order to be with each other for the rest of our lives? We will keep leaving, and start a new relationship with someone new, and when we cannot tahan, we leave again.


During the Sunday sermon just last week, Pr Eric mentioned that married couples (and even unmarried ones) are like two papers gluing to each other. When conflicts happen, the papers cannot be torn apart just because they have different opinions. No matter what couples must go through together every conflict and arguments and misunderstandings and miscommunication, but yet remain gluing to each other.

The easy part is always to remain silent and part their own ways, that way at least it's peaceful. But no, conflicts won't be resolved and there will always be a thorn in their hearts.


Husky and I are a lot different when it comes to opinions. Me being the emotional one, him being the rational one. I call him cold blooded sometimes, because when my emotion is like super excited or super down, he will be very steady.

For example, when I'm super excited, his response will be of a dead person's heartbeat rate. One straight line. SUPER COLD BLOODED. -.- But when I'm super down, he will comfort me by saying things of different perspective, and at the end he will say aiya, nothing one la. Of course to me it's not nothing one, but when I took a step back and see the bigger picture, it's actually really nothing one. Just that on the spot of course I was being very emotional la.

Over the time I guess we do learn a lot by conveying our thinking clearly to each other, even though sometimes we do feel like being quiet is the best option. But by that means we give up on communicating with each other and it's absolutely not the right way to strengthen our relationship.



Good or bad, we are stuck together, okay?

男人的肩膀

我觉得比起女人，男人的肩膀更为沉重。虽然说现在是男女平等，可是养家这责任还是落在男人身上。


以前当我跟爸爸妈妈还有公公婆婆吃饭时，看到爸爸夹菜给公公婆婆，然后给妈妈，然后给我。当然其实我可以夹给我自己吃，妈妈有时也夹给我，但那时让我领悟到，上有爸爸妈妈，下有孩子，还有老婆的时候，男人的肩膀是很沉重的。

故事还没说完，如果这个男人是个老板，肩膀更沉重。在家顾的是一家老少，在公司顾的是许许多多员工的家庭。公司发生什么风风雨雨，找的都是老板。在公司烦公事，回到家还要烦家事。到底有哪个时段可以让自己好好做回自己？

有些男人负担不起这责任，宁愿吃软饭；有些男人责任感太重，顾及不到家庭和事业，到最后两头烧。

怎样的男人算是成功？职位很高的男人？薪水很高的男人？有时间陪伴家人的男人？能够与身边的人好好沟通的男人？

还是以上皆是的男人？

有这么完美的男人吗？有这么能平衡家庭与事业的男人吗？

哈士奇你将来会是这样的男人吗？

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A Dog's Purpose

Wanted to watch this since last year, and Husky told me to bring 3 boxes of tissues into the cinema. In the end he brought extra packet of tissue just in case.

I cried everytime a dog died. :\

Got corgi also OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No matter what type the dog became, it's still the very same Bailey. It looks like Barley by the way. :D

I once read that your dog means something to you, but to him/her, you mean everything.

Like really, they will love you so much, they can even risk their lives for you. The humanity in it is sometimes way beyond humans. :')

I'm 23!

So I'm officially 23! Every year I'll be saying the same thing:

"Sound so old right now."

Hahahahahahahaha.

So I had an early birthday celebration with Husky on the 24th of Jan and a belated celebration with Nek on the 2nd of Feb. Of course not to forget, my actual birthday celebration with my parents on the 25th of Jan.

Husky brought me to Sushi Mentai for dinner after work.

Haiya my finger -.-

Not bad eh~ 😏😏😏

We kept annoyed each other and I kept talked talked talked till he said he finished 80% of the green tea because I was busy with talking instead of eating.

Super full I tell you!

When I reached home only I realise that, I didn't take picture with this guy, who didn't initiate to take picture with me also. :\

SAD DIE ME LOR FIRST TIME CELEBRATE BIRTHDAY WITH ME LEA NO PICTURE TOGETHER LEA
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Anyway thank you for the birthday treat~ 😚😚😚😚

Then the belated celebration with my Nek~

I wanted to go to Dreamz Bakery for sooooooooooooooooooooooooo looooooooooooooooooonnnnggggggggggg and finally we came here!!!!!!

The environment is sooooooooooo cosyyyyyyyyy and sweeeeeetttttttt too!!!

Our lunch, we shared everything here hahahaha!

The food here, no matter is the chicken salad with lemon sauce, or Dark Secret cake, or brown rice tea, is soooooooooo niceeeee OMG I FEEL LIKE GOING BACK THERE NOW!

:D

And I got a gift too! It's a pen calligraphy set!!

May our friendship last forever! :D

Thank you Nek for the food and gift and everything! 💋💋💋💋💋💋

01.01.17

No last emo post for the last day of 2016.

No excited post for the first day of 2017.

Because all I feel is...contented.

Contented of what I'm having, even though I still argue with my Mum a lot, even though I still don't have much to talk with my Dad, even though my bf is not the tallest, richest and handsomest bf in the universe, even though my Nek is still thinner than me, even though my job doesn't give me the highest salary in the world, even though I'm still waiting for God to answer my some of my prayers.

But I know my Mum protects me, I know my Dad loves me, I know my bf cares for me, I know my Nek gets fatter already, I know I had learned so much in my company, and I know that I will get answers from God someday, just as I always have.


Turning from 21 to 22 is not a big deal because I still had exams in January back then, it doesn't change much as my status was still a student.

But then turning from 22 to 23 is a whole lot of big deal.

My status doesn't change, from an employee to... still an employee. Just a not so newbie employee anymore.

Usually they call those who are in their early 20s as young adult. And in few more years time, the 'young' word will be stripped off, no more young anymore. Officially adult. Getting-old adult.

*Cries*

Where did my youth go? Cannot la, must achieve more things when I'm still a young adult! But I always find myself standing at the same circle, going nowhere than where I'm always been.

Need to start achieving goals instead of making them. How to make new resolutions if the old ones are still stuck underneath somewhere?

Starting by using time well. I've made a planner to avoid myself from browsing too much FB or Instagram. :D

The key to success is to fully utilize our time and create more productivity. 

- Quote by Jasmine Ng -

Remember to jot it down and make it your life mantra. ;)


By the way, there wasn't much fireworks when the time reached 00:00. Spending too much in 2016, eh?

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. - Hebrews 11:6 -

So Sweet

So sweet. Until now I'm still in awe. And also feel like smacking myself for being dramatic.


So what happened was, Husky bought me chocolates. Like, you must be kidding me?! A wood bought me chocolates. :O

The story began with him coming over to have lunch with me as usual on Tuesdays, and since he'll balik kampung till 1st of Jan 2017, technically the next time I see him is next year. Which is also next week by the way. 😐

Wanted him to say something nice to me face-to-face for the last time in this year, but this fella still want to stick with his annoying attitude and just know how to kacau me. -.-

Beh song him a little, but that's all.

Then when I reached home and was wiping my dressing table, he called. Purposely ignore his 1st call because I still beh song him. Hmph. And also thought he called the wrong person because it's weird that he called around this time.

He called again and I answered lor. I still beh song him but not really beh song him ma. (okay I got a bit confused with my own words).

He asked me to go downstairs because he got something for me. Feeling weird why he didn't pass to me when we met during lunch, I just went down.

Then he passed me a box of Ferreo Rocher and also dark chocolate.

My 1st reaction was to cry. Non-stop. -.- Thinking back I felt so embarrassed. -.-

Then I kept repeating so expensive for countless times until I also fed up with myself but still couldn't stopped saying these two words. While my tears rolled down non-stop.


I must admit that before I was in a relationship I had those romantic fantasies like how my future bf will spoil me with gifts and surprises and all, and when I started my relationship with Husky I was so frustrated with him for not being the romantic guy that I had always dreamt of having.

It wasn't his nature, and he couldn't do anything about it. So I slowly accepted his character and started to not wishing anything romantic from him. Though sometimes I still wish that he can do something to give me surprise.

So when he passed the chocolates to me I thought he was feeling guilty for making me upset this afternoon, but he told me he already planned to give me chocolates as Christmas gift.

He estimated that I cried 7 mins non-stop. -.-

"Scold you you cry, give you things you also cry, when did you ever not cry?"

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The story ended with him coming to my house for dinner. For the first time. :D

Thank you Husky 😍😍😍😍😍

Today

Today is another busy day.

My lady boss came over, so means we'll talk a lot with her, about work and also personal stuff (like what to eat for diet).

But before that, I need to introduce Jess here. Ah Ying had gone to pursue her degree in MMU, and Jess came in a month earlier to take over Ah Ying's role. Still bit kelam-kabut with what she should do, and what's worse is that when she asked me how to do this how to do that I told her I don't know because I wasn't involved with what Ah Ying did last time and it made Jess wanna cry.

Ahahahaha.

When Jess first came and introduced her name, I was like, oookkkaaaayyyyyyy because our names are so similar! People often call me with her name, and when they realised they called another person they will add a "Mint" behind Jess. Basically it becomes Jessmint. -.-

I was disappointed with myself terribly for some time, because I felt that after more than half year working here has caused many problems for my lady boss.

She's handling both her father's and husband's (my boss) company so since I'm hired in her husband's (my boss) company she should have lighter burden and can focus more on her father's company but in the end I give her more headaches.

And because my boss and her try to not scold their staff in office I end up feeling more guilty of the mistakes I had made.

Nevertheless I learned a lot. Just like today I learned how to do double entry for the purchase of a new vehicle. I did a draft and my lady boss amended my draft and made the whole paper a huge mess hahaha! Like a teacher correcting her student's homework and gave her a big red F hahahaah. Thanks to GST everyone in the business line needs to do extra stuff. -.-

Since my lady boss was in my office for almost whole day, me and Jess had a great conversation with her while doing our work. She shared the same table with me while using our respective laptops and I felt like she's my classmate in school. Ahahaha.

Nevertheless, I'll try my best to absorb as much as I can and to stop repeating mistakes!!!

The exciting thing that is coming: We'll be going to Hatyai for company trip next Saturday!!!!! Will be seeing Ah Ying again and I have a feeling that I won't get to sleep at night because of her and Jess. Muahahaha.

Other than work, I would also like to talk about Husky. He has been a great supporter whenever I have problems and I deeply appreciate him for listening and comforting. He sucks with comforting me when he's the one who makes me angry but if it's regarding other people and stuff then he's a good listener. Hehehehe.

I remember last year around this period we weren't having a steady relationship, a lot of doubts and tears and miscommunication. But lately I feel that we're getting there, to the point where we began to understand each other more and having lesser doubts. Sometimes I wake up having the feeling that I will not love other people as much as I love him.

He's still annoying, still wouldn't say nice things about me, still a kayu, but I know he loves me. :P

Convocation

Being working for more than half a year, attending convocation seems a weird thing to do. Haha.

Last time we always complained, aiya soooo looooooooooooonggggg need to wait 10 months for convocation, bo mood liao la!

And today, we just attended the convocation.

Seeing people from my class, which include the junior batch, I felt like we never left university.

Began the day by registration, getting the robe and hat for the first time, having Nek in helping me to pin my hat and my robe, getting flowers from my parents (though they actually self-made one bouquet at home hahahaha), and taking family potrait.

The self-made bouquet on the left and the Minnie Mouse bouquet on the right. :D

Then rehearsal, which ended quite fast so guests were allowed to enter the hall earlier than planned.

SEGi students were seated just behind the Masters graduands of Hyper Island (not sure why a university is named that name hahahaha), so basically we didn't need to wait too long to get on stage, but we did need to wait for other graduands from other universities to get on stage haha.

Cheeeeseeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

PC: Nek

A blur picture by my Dad when I got off the stage and went back to my place hahahahaha.

AND we ended the whole ceremony early too. Not sure was it too cincai (heard that ADP's convocation has performances while we had none ahaha), but nevertheless it was just for that 5 seconds for each individual, so it was alright hahaha.

Our seniors came, Poh ah Poh came, Gajie they all came, SUMC members came.

Once I came out from the hall, they were the ones I took picture with.
Glaring at the cheese tarts wishing they were mine. Hahahahaha. :P

PC: Nek

With Flowerboy!

PC: Nek

With Ah Yi. Our bear and mouse faced to our right side hahahaha.

PC: Nek

Me and Poh ah Poh~ Thanks for the cute pen!!! :D

Me and Nek!!!!!!!!

PC: Nek

Gorgor, Me and Nek. :D

PC: Josh Low

Nek what were you doing with my robe again hahaha!

Weeeeeee~!!

:P

The surprise came when I finally saw this guy (ask me where was the venue only when he arrived Sunway Clio Hotel -.-) from afar, and when I got nearer to him I saw this big bouquet of flowers. My mouth immediately hung wide open because he told me he will buy one flower and not a whole bouquet of flowers plus a bear. 

THIS PICTURE IS SO THE VERY NICE AND ALL THANKS TO JOSH LOW!!!!

Felt so warm and happy and blessed at the same time. Of course this is the first time receiving flowers, probably the last from him too ahhahahahaha. But that feeling will last forever! Thank you Husky! 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

Of course not to forget to thank my parents for their love for me. Their only child is officially graduated and I know that they're so proud with me. 💕💕💕💕👪👪👪

💕

What's next? :D

Closer, yet further apart

I love videos involving The Ming Thing. It can be produced by them, it also can be projects involving them. They really bring out videos that shows the reality of what's happening in our daily lives in a relationship.

Like this video, when I watched it I thought about last year. We had constant fights (okay we didn't fight, just me complaining and crying and sobbing and emo-ing) about him not replying me immediately, and what I think and said at that point were exactly what the girl in this video said.

Then it hit me. I'm not the only one who faces this situation, apparently Husky is not the only guy who gets frustrated with girls like me. Haha.

I don't complain much about this nowadays, I sure hope I didn't. Should ask Husky about it. Haha. :P

Wedding Dinner

So I represented my company to attend a wedding dinner and the fun fact is: I went with Husky. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Still remember last year he asked me to attend his friend's wedding when we weren't even official. *roll eyes*

At the end I'm also got the chance to ask him to go with me and off we went.

Managed to reach there around 7.05pm, which was wayyyyyyyyy too early hahahaha bo bian la, represent company must give good impression hahahahahahaahahahaha. After registered we walked around the golf club (yeah the venue is in a restaurant that is located in a golf club) and sat beside the swimming pool for a while.

Waited until 8.30pm (Malaysian time, duh) finally we can eat.

Ciao at 11+pm and we took our own sweet time driving back home while singing in the car hahahahaha.

Oh ya, I drank red wine hahahahaha shared with Husky who drank not that much because he needed to drive.

This is considered one of a kind wedding because it's quite low profile, instead of more than 50 tables they only had 22 tables. So to get to be invited means my boss quite important to the groom hahaha. Also it means they don't need to invite unnecessary people. Heh. And the bride didn't change her gown at all, others change at least once.

A lot of people don't mind splurging lots of money for a wedding. If they can afford, why not? But IF they can't afford and no matter how they want to squeeze their money from their pockets and banks (or even borrow from other people, no joke) the consequence is they need to bear the debt after the wedding is over. What's important as they say, to focus on marriage and not only the wedding.

I still prefer outdoor wedding. Though the risk is how good will the weather be. Hehehe.

Our 1st time attending a wedding dinner hahahaha

Proverbs 20:6-7

6 Many claim to have unfailing love, but a faithful person who can find? 

7 The righteous lead blameless lives; blessed are their children after them.

Peace.

I know that there are many people in the world who doesn't believe in the existence of God.

There are even theories out there that says Man is actually the one who created God because when there is no hope they create a 'God' to give them hope.

And there are also many testimonies that tells stories of successful people. They have great jobs, they have faithful spouses and beautiful kids, they manage to go through each obstacles that they face, everything seems to be perfect but what is lacking is the emptiness in their hearts.


To me I often question myself, what is the difference of having God in my life. What if I deny His existence? What if I don't know His existence at all?

Then I compare my life in secondary school and now.

I know that it's a normal process for people to change due to some situations and that's the meaning of maturing.

But I realise that I can't fill up the emptiness in my heart without God.

Sure enough, there are motivation articles and books about thinking positive out there to help us set our mindset straight.

When they say, don't worry about your problems, they will be gone over time, I will feel that so where do the problems go actually? How are they going to solve themselves?

But with God in my heart, I know where the problems go. They surrender to God. Hahaha I think I can say that. God is bigger than our problems, as what we are always told, so when they say don't worry, have peace, I know that God is my solution.

The ultimate difference of not having God in our lives and having God in our lives is not that we won't have problems in our whole lives, but we understand that there's God behind our backs who will help us to learn more about patience and have peace in our hearts, and by that we won't feel insecure on where our problems will go.

Nek shared a video to me yesterday about a baby who is in serious condition and may not be able to survive, and how the baby's parents encouraged each other with prayers and faith which turn into peace in their hearts. It was very touched as they really have faith and trust in God that whatever situation it may be, they have peace in their hearts. But I can say that, their hearts can only be strengthened when both of them are of the same faith. I don't know how they are going to do it if one of them is not a believer of the same faith.

When there are no crisis in our lives we can say that we don't need God, but when something big hits us and when we're depressed, that's the time when we cry for help. If it's that so, why not have God in our lives without having a crisis to happen? That way we know that our hearts are stabilized with His existence all the time.


Lately I've been feeling contented with Husky. Even though we have conflicts now and then, I still feel contented. But that feeling immediately change into fear as I'm scare that the happiness that I'm having now won't last long. This has nothing to do with him and it's all about my emotion. Therefore, this post is to remind myself that I shouldn't let fear takes away my happiness that I deserve. Otherwise, what is the difference of having God in my life? He is always in control of everything. :)

1 Peter 5:7

7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Iguana

It's very rare that I get to go out on a weekday night, especially after I've started work.

But it's Iguana! No matter what also need to give face right? :P

The reason why all 25 of us had a dinner together is for the departure of Iguana to U.K for 2 years. *sob sob*

Also you can say that it's the first time me and Husky appeared together publicly since we are official. OH YEAH WE ARE OFFICIAL SINCE A MONTH AGO. HAHAHAHAHA!

Ahem, back to Iguana.

When Husky told me about this dinner I told him to tell Val privately that I'll be coming to give Iguana a surprise. I almost fail to attend as I'm still having cough and sore throat, felt pretty bad when I woke up in the morning but I felt better during afternoon so I decided to give it a shot.

So Husky fetched me after my work, and we headed there, to find out that we're actually the first ones to arrive but we dilly dally a bit so we arrived when most of them already in Hometown Steamboat.

There were so many of us till we needed 3 tables to connect with each other.

Husky made me proud for being the chef of the table because he is so pro of knowing which ingredients to put in first and agak-agak when the ingredients are cooked, until I gave him applause and feel so proud that I don't need to cook for the rest of my life WOOHOO! xD

The people of my table is so traditional, drinking hot Chinese tea while others ordered longan and etc. Hahaha!

When they asked us what we want to eat, I keep pointing pictures like ice cream and... more ice cream, only to get a firm NO by Husky because I'm not supposed to eat that yet. Saaaaaadddddd.

And before we ate, we toast for Iguana's departure, we toast for the start of Angel's unemployment period, we toast for Gorgor for coming back from Ipoh, we toast for Jasontato for coming back from U.K, and the last toast was from Gorgor who toast for me and Husky. -.-

Husky shouted YUMMMMM SEENNNGGGGG so loud as if this's his wedding. -.-

While I just yuuuuuummmmmmmmmm seng, basically due to lack of voice. HAHA.

After we finished eating, it was time to take turns and gave Iguana our wishes. Most of us say take care, I just took out my phone and showed the rest that I'm important in her life because our picture is featured in her FB page HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA she said she put it because Zai Zai is inside (our picture in Desa Park on Valentine's Day hahahaha) but I remember she got solo picture with Zai Zai la hahahaha.

The juniors spoke until they sobbed and cried, when it was my turn I did the same thing too boohoohoooooo :'(

We saw Wendy cried man tears, promising that if Iguana comes back with another guy he'll be the first to kill him. It ended with Iguana speaking out her feelings to some of her close ones, and lastly mentioned that she put the picture in FB because of me la hahahahahaha.

Gorgor shouted from her place that the juniors said finally they saw the 'real me'. Actually I saw them before, but that time they haven't join SUMC YET and didn't know Husky YET and weren't that close to him YET so they didn't really care about my existence la. HOR HUSKY. -.-

We ciao around 10 something, and fetched few friends back before sending me back home. Can't make it for the airport trip to send Iguana off next week because it's quite late, feel so sadddddddd....:\

But anyhow I still thank God that I get to know her, as someone who's so crazy and comfortable with herself and also a good spiritual friend, never forget the days where we went to camp together and had heart to heart talk. I do hope that she and Wendy will be able to stay strong throughout these 2 years! :')