These 2 months are a roller coaster for me. Not related to my career, God has somewhat helps me to stabilise my job to face another challenge.
The “do not judge” challenge.
It all started when my colleagues knew that I was away during CNY, not accompanying my parents but I went to Husky’s hometown instead. They were shocked. Like, really. They made a huge fuss until I felt 莫名其妙 and 委屈 at the same time. What in the world are you guys thinking?
I tried to explain, but it made things worse. I felt so, so terrible that day. Other than being stress for work and used to be stress with my mum regarding my job, I’ve never felt this terrible before.
It’s like I was drowning, and nobody was there to rescue me. Things got worse when I was being lectured by my boss, and I was so disappointed till I had no emotions left.
I kept asking myself, the definition of being a good daughter. How does not spending CNY with my parents made me a bad daughter? So all the good things that I’ve done as a good daughter were instantly swept under the carpet and are not surfaced anymore?
I just felt so bad, so terrible. Having the pressure of being the only child in the family is stressful enough and I had to force myself to not overpressure myself, and yet this statement? Am I really a bad child for not spending CNY with my parents? Am I?
Besides the emotional side, my rational side also got me thinking: Have I ever judged other people when I do not know the whole story? The answer is yes.
One of God’s commandments is do not bear false witness. As humans, we often perceive what is on the surface. Those worldly eyes... when will we learn to see things the way God sees things?
After 2 weeks, I thought I had put this incident aside, until that day I just broke down and cried for more than an hour in front of Husky (poor him, see me cry almost every weekend ahahaha) and didn’t know the reason of crying. Until I stopped crying and realise that I didn’t let go of this incident at all. I was holding the grudge, the resentfulness inside me was so deep that it’s eating me up. I was angry, upset with my colleagues. I understand that they were concern over me, but their concern made me worse, and my boss being his usual self, did not ask for more details but had labelled me straight. I was disappointed because as a boss I had expected him to have more mature thinking by not judging, but...it’s him. So yeah.
I didn’t tell my mum about this incident until one day, she was sad over an old incident. Only I spilled it out to her, she said it was very ok for me to go to Husky’s hometown, and my colleagues were just not understanding because CNY to us is nothing, especially when my grandparents are not here anymore, and Christmas is more important in fact. Trust me, my CNY holidays are always so dull it looks like an extended weekend because I’ll be going to the places where I go usually during weekends.
I kept having this resentfulness towards one of my colleagues because I had told her not to tell my boss but she still insisted. I felt that she did not respect me as a colleague or even friend. Until that day I read Mark 11:25 - And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
It’s so tired if you’re having this grudge onto someone. I hate that feeling so much, because it seems that no matter how good that person treats you, everything just seems so wrong. It seems like God is nudging me to have courage and talk to her bout this situation, because the following week we need to work together as a team. So I waited for the right opportunity, and I spilled how I felt to her, and she told me her opinion as well.
Conclusion was, nobody is wrong in this picture, just that our directions are different, I wouldn’t want to force them to accept my situation, at the same time I wouldn’t like it if they use their ruler to measure my shirt, which they did. Lol ok that’s a direct translate from a Chinese proverb.
I still do make quick judgments/statements nowadays, but I’ve learnt to stop my thoughts quickly, and try to think in a different way. Sometimes I still need people to remind me, I still do. But I think that in this season of life, God wants me to learn on not judging people with my worldly eyes. And to offer as a listener and show compassion to people who are upset for being misunderstood.
I always say this, and I still do: being a Christian is not easy at all. Especially when I’m still not walking the ways God wants us to walk, and I’m still not being able to show the love and compassion God wants us to show. Especially to Husky. How is he going to accept Christ when I'm not doing the right thing? With my bad explanations on certain things, sometimes he misunderstood Christianity but I’ve failed to let him see the clearer picture.
Nevertheless, it’s a good lesson for me to guard my mouth and be wise with my words. And also I wouldn’t know that Husky is so protective to me that he wants to sort things out with my boss HAHA. Being someone who doesn’t like to trouble others, this is indeed a different side of him. 😝
“God wants you to know that sometimes God allows us to go through certain difficult times, even as a result of wicked actions by others. Yet whatever we have to endure, no matter how unfair or unjust , we can be sure that God will use it for good.”
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Thursday, March 12, 2020
Tuesday, October 8, 2019
Mask
Often time I feel that I’m wearing mask all the time.
At work I need to be very careful with my words, being said by seniors that the words that came out from my mouth offends people a lot even though 99% of the time I don’t mean it. Left 1% is when I mean it but people don’t feel offended haha.
I just hate to think talking in a nicer way. I just want to express what I want to say. Too bad in the sales industry, you need to think how to say it the way people want to hear it. Then only people will trust you and build relationship with you.
At home I too need to be careful. When sales are good, I hide it as it’s not constant, trying to avoid my parents from setting a high expectation of me that I’m doing super good; when sales are bad I hide it because well... we all know it. So I’m trying to be as neutral as I can.
When I’m alone, I just want to do my things quietly. Watch tv, read a book.
Only when w Husky I can be myself. Though, I’m not that sure whether he’s 100% himself when he’s with me or not. Hahahahaha.
Nevertheless, this is life and all of us have a role to play. I’m constantly trying to improve myself on focus. Not to distract myself easily with WhatsApp messages unless it’s an urgent call.
At work I need to be very careful with my words, being said by seniors that the words that came out from my mouth offends people a lot even though 99% of the time I don’t mean it. Left 1% is when I mean it but people don’t feel offended haha.
I just hate to think talking in a nicer way. I just want to express what I want to say. Too bad in the sales industry, you need to think how to say it the way people want to hear it. Then only people will trust you and build relationship with you.
At home I too need to be careful. When sales are good, I hide it as it’s not constant, trying to avoid my parents from setting a high expectation of me that I’m doing super good; when sales are bad I hide it because well... we all know it. So I’m trying to be as neutral as I can.
When I’m alone, I just want to do my things quietly. Watch tv, read a book.
Only when w Husky I can be myself. Though, I’m not that sure whether he’s 100% himself when he’s with me or not. Hahahahaha.
Nevertheless, this is life and all of us have a role to play. I’m constantly trying to improve myself on focus. Not to distract myself easily with WhatsApp messages unless it’s an urgent call.
Thursday, July 25, 2019
Dengue
So I was just discharged from hospital last Friday due to dengue. I was never admitted to hospital other than 2 times when I was a baby (I was born in a hospital, and I was admitted for fits when I was really small).
Visited my grandparents in hospital while they were still around, but basically that was my experience going to hospital.
Oh, watching tv dramas don't count, do they?
So when I almost blackout twice, my parents sent me to hospital and I felt very frightened. It's like, there will be needles poking me, doctors telling me bad news on my report.
I called Husky to notify him that I might need to be admitted to hospital, cried once. He came to visit me while I was still in emergency ward, cried twice. On day 3 the nurse couldn't find my vein but still die die want to take my blood, it was so pain I cried the third time. In front of Husky also.
This story tells us that Husky is always there when I cried. Or that he was there, that's why I cried. So he shouldn't be there. Sure something bad will happen one HAHAHAHA!
Okay just kidding.
Basically what happened to me was, nurses barging in for BP and temperature checks every 2 hours, blood test every 6 hours, staffs barging in for various reasons such as deliver newspaper, deliver 4 meals, clean the room etc etc. So I had a lot of visitors. Hahahaha. I had much rest during the afternoon, at least not so many staffs coming in and out. But I always had phobia when I saw nurses coming in with a trolley. I would always ask, nak ambil darah ke? Sometimes it was just BP checks, so I was relieved. As I totally lost what was the time, I always had to ask the question. And bringing the drip thing in and out is very mafan thing.
I appreciate my freedom a lot after that. To be able to move around freely without my new pet (the drip thing?), and to be able to use my right hand freely, because bending in different angle will cause my hand to feel pain. Oh btw I had trained my left hand to bath and even wash hair on its own LOL.
The meals, for first few days I was pretty excited to choose my own food. After that my appetite just dropped (I'm scared of brown rice now!) and my food choice was nasi lemak and potato wedges. Hahaha so not healthy.
Husky visited me every night, my parents came in twice a day (must be super hectic for them 😩😩😩), Nek visited me once, she even wanted to barge in and wake me up but too bad I was already awaken (thanks to the usual BP checks). My colleagues wanted to visit me but somehow I felt lazy to meet them. It's like, I didn't have a good rest and I don't know which exact time you'll be reaching, and I certainly don't want to wait for you. So I might as well just sleep and ask them not to come. Hahahaha.
But finally after 6 days I was allowed to be discharged!! My legs felt weak, because all I did was eat and sleep for whole week. No places for me to walk around also. And thank God for medical card! Can't imagine sharing my room with another patient, who might bring his or her kampung to visit (and even overnight!) there.
This flower has a funny story. So it was supposed to be my 3rd anniversary with Husky, and he already placed order for this flower on Thurs, and to give me on Sunday (our anniversary was on following Wednesday). Mana tau I go masuk hospital, and he had to give me in hospital, which becomes gift for a patient more than for anniversary purpose. Hahahaha!
Basically end of my dengue story. 😁
Visited my grandparents in hospital while they were still around, but basically that was my experience going to hospital.
Oh, watching tv dramas don't count, do they?
So when I almost blackout twice, my parents sent me to hospital and I felt very frightened. It's like, there will be needles poking me, doctors telling me bad news on my report.
I called Husky to notify him that I might need to be admitted to hospital, cried once. He came to visit me while I was still in emergency ward, cried twice. On day 3 the nurse couldn't find my vein but still die die want to take my blood, it was so pain I cried the third time. In front of Husky also.
This story tells us that Husky is always there when I cried. Or that he was there, that's why I cried. So he shouldn't be there. Sure something bad will happen one HAHAHAHA!
Okay just kidding.
Basically what happened to me was, nurses barging in for BP and temperature checks every 2 hours, blood test every 6 hours, staffs barging in for various reasons such as deliver newspaper, deliver 4 meals, clean the room etc etc. So I had a lot of visitors. Hahahaha. I had much rest during the afternoon, at least not so many staffs coming in and out. But I always had phobia when I saw nurses coming in with a trolley. I would always ask, nak ambil darah ke? Sometimes it was just BP checks, so I was relieved. As I totally lost what was the time, I always had to ask the question. And bringing the drip thing in and out is very mafan thing.
I appreciate my freedom a lot after that. To be able to move around freely without my new pet (the drip thing?), and to be able to use my right hand freely, because bending in different angle will cause my hand to feel pain. Oh btw I had trained my left hand to bath and even wash hair on its own LOL.
The meals, for first few days I was pretty excited to choose my own food. After that my appetite just dropped (I'm scared of brown rice now!) and my food choice was nasi lemak and potato wedges. Hahaha so not healthy.
Husky visited me every night, my parents came in twice a day (must be super hectic for them 😩😩😩), Nek visited me once, she even wanted to barge in and wake me up but too bad I was already awaken (thanks to the usual BP checks). My colleagues wanted to visit me but somehow I felt lazy to meet them. It's like, I didn't have a good rest and I don't know which exact time you'll be reaching, and I certainly don't want to wait for you. So I might as well just sleep and ask them not to come. Hahahaha.
But finally after 6 days I was allowed to be discharged!! My legs felt weak, because all I did was eat and sleep for whole week. No places for me to walk around also. And thank God for medical card! Can't imagine sharing my room with another patient, who might bring his or her kampung to visit (and even overnight!) there.
This flower has a funny story. So it was supposed to be my 3rd anniversary with Husky, and he already placed order for this flower on Thurs, and to give me on Sunday (our anniversary was on following Wednesday). Mana tau I go masuk hospital, and he had to give me in hospital, which becomes gift for a patient more than for anniversary purpose. Hahahaha!
Basically end of my dengue story. 😁
Wednesday, January 16, 2019
2018_2019
After weeks and weeks of dumping my blog, I'm finally back. :D
If I were to use one word to describe 2018, there's no doubt other than: C H A L L E N G I N G
May I add another word in front: V E R Y C H A L L E N G I N G
My 2018 started off with a bang, having celebrate New Year in Guangzhou, going to China again on end of January, this time to Zhang Jia Jie, company trip as I had hit the target. Actually I also hit another incentive trip, which is to Osaka in July. But things got sour, and depressed. Everyday going to work oh-so early, thought of doing extra work to improve myself, end up having fear at 9.30am daily when walk-ins began to come in, and relief when it was 4pm as the shutter was pulled down.
Relief, but stressed too, as we submit daily report into the WhatsApp chatgroup, waiting for managers to shoot us for poor sales figure.
So I made another career jump. A risky jump as this current job has no basic at all and I was just struggling to survive, flexible timing yet too flexible and time is easily wasted without proper planning.
Disagreement between parents and I, just add salt to my wound. Hurt so badly, different type of stress, but can't figure which one is worse. Struggling to grow up, wanted to be independent so badly, but the string keeps holding me back.
There was a happy ending towards end of 2018, but not too long ago things just back to square one.
Even Husky was affected, and I was deeply guilty for it.
Other than all these challenging moments, I went to church camp once again (missed out 2017 one as it clashed with my Taiwan trip), and went to mission trip again. Not to forget, the long awaiting Europe trip. My parents had always planned for it once my dad has longer break due to retirement, finally it has arrived. Just feel that time passed too fast.
Missed out blogging so many weeks, promised myself to blog every week but always had something coming up so I just ignore it.Wanted to be slim, once again failed. Wanted to put braces, wanted to wear Cheongsam, wanted to own my own car, wanted to learn brush lettering and modern calligraphy, all these things are just not happening.
What's the use of writing out goals and resolutions when you just can't fulfill them all?!
Am I a failure for not being able to just grasp what I want to do? To fight for what I want?
Am I living my life, or am I just trying to keep peace and fulfilling my mum's expectation of what my life should be? Having the path being set ahead smoothly is just too ordinary, and realising that I've been behaving too good following my mum's directions till... I have no direction of life at all. Husky said I have too many directions, just not sure which to choose.
Which just end up same conclusion: I don't know what I want to do in life. Instead I was led blindly, following instructions, at the same time losing myself bit by bit each day.
At the age of 25, I just hope that I'll be able to find my purpose in life.
Have not been taking a lot pictures last year. Hope to take more pictures this year!
If I were to use one word to describe 2018, there's no doubt other than: C H A L L E N G I N G
May I add another word in front: V E R Y C H A L L E N G I N G
My 2018 started off with a bang, having celebrate New Year in Guangzhou, going to China again on end of January, this time to Zhang Jia Jie, company trip as I had hit the target. Actually I also hit another incentive trip, which is to Osaka in July. But things got sour, and depressed. Everyday going to work oh-so early, thought of doing extra work to improve myself, end up having fear at 9.30am daily when walk-ins began to come in, and relief when it was 4pm as the shutter was pulled down.
Relief, but stressed too, as we submit daily report into the WhatsApp chatgroup, waiting for managers to shoot us for poor sales figure.
So I made another career jump. A risky jump as this current job has no basic at all and I was just struggling to survive, flexible timing yet too flexible and time is easily wasted without proper planning.
Disagreement between parents and I, just add salt to my wound. Hurt so badly, different type of stress, but can't figure which one is worse. Struggling to grow up, wanted to be independent so badly, but the string keeps holding me back.
There was a happy ending towards end of 2018, but not too long ago things just back to square one.
Even Husky was affected, and I was deeply guilty for it.
Other than all these challenging moments, I went to church camp once again (missed out 2017 one as it clashed with my Taiwan trip), and went to mission trip again. Not to forget, the long awaiting Europe trip. My parents had always planned for it once my dad has longer break due to retirement, finally it has arrived. Just feel that time passed too fast.
Missed out blogging so many weeks, promised myself to blog every week but always had something coming up so I just ignore it.Wanted to be slim, once again failed. Wanted to put braces, wanted to wear Cheongsam, wanted to own my own car, wanted to learn brush lettering and modern calligraphy, all these things are just not happening.
What's the use of writing out goals and resolutions when you just can't fulfill them all?!
Am I a failure for not being able to just grasp what I want to do? To fight for what I want?
Am I living my life, or am I just trying to keep peace and fulfilling my mum's expectation of what my life should be? Having the path being set ahead smoothly is just too ordinary, and realising that I've been behaving too good following my mum's directions till... I have no direction of life at all. Husky said I have too many directions, just not sure which to choose.
Which just end up same conclusion: I don't know what I want to do in life. Instead I was led blindly, following instructions, at the same time losing myself bit by bit each day.
At the age of 25, I just hope that I'll be able to find my purpose in life.
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| 2019 Resolution: To be Fu Guai Po HAHAHAHAHA! Just kiddiiinngggg :D |
Have not been taking a lot pictures last year. Hope to take more pictures this year!
Thursday, June 1, 2017
June'17
So it's June now!!!!!!!! 5 months have passed!
Back then if you ask me what I've done for the past few months, I probably answer you I don't know. Time just got wasted as it is.
BUT! Now yes I can tell you what I've done!
1. Meesu 25
I'm currently selling couple/family/siblings/besties shirts! It's okay if you're single, just don't let the couple shirts title bring you down because I've got a feedback that she feels sad when I ask her whether she's interested in couple shirts or not. Like, okayyyyyy are you interested in single shirt? Hahaha just kidding.
Feel free to visit my FB page Meesu 25 (which is pronounced as Miss You 25) by clicking here! After quitting selling chokers, I've found a better business to try out. Hahahaha. And I can tell you that I've learned sooooooo much from it! There are the ups and downs, feeling of joy when someone says yes to buying the shirts, feeling of excitement when someone conveys their interests on the shirts, feeling of awkwardness when I had to PM them again just to confirm their interest on the shirts (don't wanna feel desperate but I just need to do follow up), and feeling of mild disappointments when someone says no to the shirts.
Despite all those ups and downs, I can just feel excitement whenever I'm doing something (or even just purely thinking and planning) related to business. Sometimes I do feel this is my calling from God. HAHAHAHAHA. Because it's basically the only thing that is still burning in my heart since long time ago. Other stuff, I'm very half basket water one haha!
2. Italian
I'm also learning Italian! Thanks to Duolingo which I found out from some articles, it makes it easier to learn another language! Also I chose Italian because it's the very first foreign language that I learned through learning piano. I'm still confused with the singular and plural words though. It makes me think of how I learn English back then, and how challenging it is when my colleague asks me what's the difference of him, he and his. Or things like that.
I'll probably learn Japanese next! Because I really really love travelling to Japan and also due to my Dad who works in a Japanese related company. He spent months in Japan for training when he was much younger. So yeah, got some influence from him la.
3. Taiwan
Besides these two, I've also traveled to Taiwan! I would definitely go back there if my goal is just to take my own sweet time visiting places and trying out the food there. It's quite a slow-pace country, so you can just enjoy your every bit of time without rushing. I don't like it when it comes to involving tours. We need to change hotels every 1 or 2 days, wait for others to board on the bus, some bus-mates got lost somewhere and forgot the time to come back, but it's good when it comes to sight-seeing. Because places like these are hard to reach when you're on your own.
4. Drawing/Colouring
Fourth of all, I've started drawing once again! Growing up going to those colouring competitions make me miss drawing/colouring/crayoning/painting. So I've make it a habit to colour again! Just can't leave my crayons/colour pencils/watercolours inside my cupboard untouched for the rest of my life. Though now I'm just focusing on using watercolours only. Pinterest is definitely my source of inspiration! Nah I'm just kidding. I'm using it to copy and paste only. Hehehe. Still trying to improve!
5. Calligraphy
Besides that, I'm also trying to self-learn calligraphy. Again, I'm using Pinterest to guide me. I'm so amazed with the typographies out there and it seems that I'm still no where compared to them! I've tried using pencil, pen, nib-set, even with a brush! The best I can do is to fake the design. -.- But I'm still trying! Hopefully one day I can write it flawlessly. :D
6. Videos
There are few types of YouTube videos that I'm watching lately. First is The Bible Project. I watched it to learn more about the Bible. It's created in a way that we can understand the Word of God in an easier way (especially the Old Testament) as the author conveys the messages through illustrations. Every video explains every Book in the Bible, so it's like there's a video for Psalms, a video for Job, a video for Genesis and so forth. I watch a video per day and I can say that I've grown my understanding about the Bible through these videos.
Then there is this Clothes Encounters by Jenn Im, a Korean American. She's just so so so so so so so pretty (still pretty when she doesn't wear any makeup!) and she has such a sweet smile! She does videos of makeups and outfits, so I do watch her videos every now and then for some inspirations even though I hardly makeup. Bahahaha.
Next is this Jubilee Media, a very meaningful place for you to find humanity in. They shoot videos that will make you touched and in these very negative world, you get to find back a sense of love and compassion in it.
7. Ted Ed & LinkedIn Pulse
I'm trying to fully utilise my lunch hours by watching Ted Ed videos and reading articles from LinkedIn Pulse. Ted Ed is about inspirations and LinkedIn is more on Entrepreneurship, Finance and Leadership. There are apps that can be downloaded for free and I really really benefit a lot from them.
10. Blog
Yeah I'm still blogging! Hahahaha! Just cannot abandon it la. So many memories inside. :')
Wow! Look at that! It has been so long since I'm so cheong hei! xD But I'm very proud that I'm wasting lesser time on social media but using more time on productivity and self-improvement. I know that with my current day job only I can have so much time to do so many things and sometimes I do feel that if I change job I'll just end up coming home wanting to sleep. But till then, I'll try to improve my time management and improve myself more! :D
Back then if you ask me what I've done for the past few months, I probably answer you I don't know. Time just got wasted as it is.
BUT! Now yes I can tell you what I've done!
1. Meesu 25
I'm currently selling couple/family/siblings/besties shirts! It's okay if you're single, just don't let the couple shirts title bring you down because I've got a feedback that she feels sad when I ask her whether she's interested in couple shirts or not. Like, okayyyyyy are you interested in single shirt? Hahaha just kidding.
Feel free to visit my FB page Meesu 25 (which is pronounced as Miss You 25) by clicking here! After quitting selling chokers, I've found a better business to try out. Hahahaha. And I can tell you that I've learned sooooooo much from it! There are the ups and downs, feeling of joy when someone says yes to buying the shirts, feeling of excitement when someone conveys their interests on the shirts, feeling of awkwardness when I had to PM them again just to confirm their interest on the shirts (don't wanna feel desperate but I just need to do follow up), and feeling of mild disappointments when someone says no to the shirts.
Despite all those ups and downs, I can just feel excitement whenever I'm doing something (or even just purely thinking and planning) related to business. Sometimes I do feel this is my calling from God. HAHAHAHAHA. Because it's basically the only thing that is still burning in my heart since long time ago. Other stuff, I'm very half basket water one haha!
2. Italian
I'm also learning Italian! Thanks to Duolingo which I found out from some articles, it makes it easier to learn another language! Also I chose Italian because it's the very first foreign language that I learned through learning piano. I'm still confused with the singular and plural words though. It makes me think of how I learn English back then, and how challenging it is when my colleague asks me what's the difference of him, he and his. Or things like that.
I'll probably learn Japanese next! Because I really really love travelling to Japan and also due to my Dad who works in a Japanese related company. He spent months in Japan for training when he was much younger. So yeah, got some influence from him la.
3. Taiwan
Besides these two, I've also traveled to Taiwan! I would definitely go back there if my goal is just to take my own sweet time visiting places and trying out the food there. It's quite a slow-pace country, so you can just enjoy your every bit of time without rushing. I don't like it when it comes to involving tours. We need to change hotels every 1 or 2 days, wait for others to board on the bus, some bus-mates got lost somewhere and forgot the time to come back, but it's good when it comes to sight-seeing. Because places like these are hard to reach when you're on your own.
4. Drawing/Colouring
Fourth of all, I've started drawing once again! Growing up going to those colouring competitions make me miss drawing/colouring/crayoning/painting. So I've make it a habit to colour again! Just can't leave my crayons/colour pencils/watercolours inside my cupboard untouched for the rest of my life. Though now I'm just focusing on using watercolours only. Pinterest is definitely my source of inspiration! Nah I'm just kidding. I'm using it to copy and paste only. Hehehe. Still trying to improve!
5. Calligraphy
Besides that, I'm also trying to self-learn calligraphy. Again, I'm using Pinterest to guide me. I'm so amazed with the typographies out there and it seems that I'm still no where compared to them! I've tried using pencil, pen, nib-set, even with a brush! The best I can do is to fake the design. -.- But I'm still trying! Hopefully one day I can write it flawlessly. :D
6. Videos
There are few types of YouTube videos that I'm watching lately. First is The Bible Project. I watched it to learn more about the Bible. It's created in a way that we can understand the Word of God in an easier way (especially the Old Testament) as the author conveys the messages through illustrations. Every video explains every Book in the Bible, so it's like there's a video for Psalms, a video for Job, a video for Genesis and so forth. I watch a video per day and I can say that I've grown my understanding about the Bible through these videos.
Next is this Jubilee Media, a very meaningful place for you to find humanity in. They shoot videos that will make you touched and in these very negative world, you get to find back a sense of love and compassion in it.
7. Ted Ed & LinkedIn Pulse
I'm trying to fully utilise my lunch hours by watching Ted Ed videos and reading articles from LinkedIn Pulse. Ted Ed is about inspirations and LinkedIn is more on Entrepreneurship, Finance and Leadership. There are apps that can be downloaded for free and I really really benefit a lot from them.
10. Blog
Yeah I'm still blogging! Hahahaha! Just cannot abandon it la. So many memories inside. :')
Wow! Look at that! It has been so long since I'm so cheong hei! xD But I'm very proud that I'm wasting lesser time on social media but using more time on productivity and self-improvement. I know that with my current day job only I can have so much time to do so many things and sometimes I do feel that if I change job I'll just end up coming home wanting to sleep. But till then, I'll try to improve my time management and improve myself more! :D
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
10 Things About Taiwan
1. They are super duper friendly. I hardly see a black face whenever I ask directions from Taiwaneses. In fact, if the person doesn't know which direction, the person standing nearby will pop out and give you the correct directions!
2. They super duper pamper their dogs. Either they hug their dogs while walking, or they place their dogs in prams. Their dogs don't need to move an inch!
3. Their life-pace is quite slow. Don't compare with fast-pace countries like Singapore and Japan, even the escalators in One Utama seems faster than those in the Taiwan MRTs!
4. Don't expect to buy a lot of clothes in their night markets. You will end up eating a lot you can't even fit into any clothes!
5. When they say it's going to rain, it won't. Their weather is not as honest as in Malaysia.
6. They expect their people to be honest, though You can see the hawker stalls placing trays of coins on top of their tables, even expecting customers to take their own change!
7. The stuff (clothes and food) are not as cheap as I'd expected. Even before we multiply the currency with a 0.15, it's relatively high compare with Malaysia.
8. Do not be cheated by the old exterior of their buildings! Our hotel is located at the 8th and 9th floor of a residential building, which looks very old and messy from the outside, but it was super neat and tidy when you enter their hotel room.
9. Their garbage trucks play beautiful music to announce their arrival! We heard similar sound in Shanghai before, but it wasn't until in Taiwan where we found out it was actually the arrival of garbage trucks. It wasn't the messy sound that you expect, in fact I find it suitable as a lullaby!
10. Last but not least, there are super duper many scooters!!
2. They super duper pamper their dogs. Either they hug their dogs while walking, or they place their dogs in prams. Their dogs don't need to move an inch!
3. Their life-pace is quite slow. Don't compare with fast-pace countries like Singapore and Japan, even the escalators in One Utama seems faster than those in the Taiwan MRTs!
4. Don't expect to buy a lot of clothes in their night markets. You will end up eating a lot you can't even fit into any clothes!
5. When they say it's going to rain, it won't. Their weather is not as honest as in Malaysia.
6. They expect their people to be honest, though You can see the hawker stalls placing trays of coins on top of their tables, even expecting customers to take their own change!
7. The stuff (clothes and food) are not as cheap as I'd expected. Even before we multiply the currency with a 0.15, it's relatively high compare with Malaysia.
8. Do not be cheated by the old exterior of their buildings! Our hotel is located at the 8th and 9th floor of a residential building, which looks very old and messy from the outside, but it was super neat and tidy when you enter their hotel room.
9. Their garbage trucks play beautiful music to announce their arrival! We heard similar sound in Shanghai before, but it wasn't until in Taiwan where we found out it was actually the arrival of garbage trucks. It wasn't the messy sound that you expect, in fact I find it suitable as a lullaby!
10. Last but not least, there are super duper many scooters!!
Thursday, March 16, 2017
Ashes
4 days since he passed away, and today is the day where his body will be burnt.
The most unbearable moment is to see the coffin being pushed inwards to be burnt, seeing the fire consumed the coffin.
They said, if you still got anything to say to Ah Gong, faster say now, may his soul rest in peace.
I wanted to ask, I thought his soul had already departed from his body the moment he passed away? After all, isn't that the meaning of death? It occurs because the soul is no longer inside his body.
The body is just a shell, but it's important because it's something that we see everyday.
Of course I wouldn't understand the meaning of doing all these things these few days, just that it's something that have been cultivated to us from generations to generations.
The family beside ours is a Christian family, and they sang Amazing Grace, followed with prayers and speeches. Christians do like giving speeches eh? They give speeches during weddings, they give speeches during funeral.
I see it as a very simple yet calming ceremony. There's no meaning no matter how much money you use for the death, so why not appreciate them more when they are alive?
There are people who die everyday, some are babies, some just got married, some just got engaged, some are foetus who are yet to be born, and there are the older ones, young adults, adults, the elderly.
How many hearts are broken each day because of the passing of someone they love dearly? It makes me wonder more what we ought to do when we're still alive.
For the Lord gives, and the Lord takes.
20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.[a]
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”- Job 1:20-21 -
The most unbearable moment is to see the coffin being pushed inwards to be burnt, seeing the fire consumed the coffin.
They said, if you still got anything to say to Ah Gong, faster say now, may his soul rest in peace.
I wanted to ask, I thought his soul had already departed from his body the moment he passed away? After all, isn't that the meaning of death? It occurs because the soul is no longer inside his body.
The body is just a shell, but it's important because it's something that we see everyday.
Of course I wouldn't understand the meaning of doing all these things these few days, just that it's something that have been cultivated to us from generations to generations.
The family beside ours is a Christian family, and they sang Amazing Grace, followed with prayers and speeches. Christians do like giving speeches eh? They give speeches during weddings, they give speeches during funeral.
I see it as a very simple yet calming ceremony. There's no meaning no matter how much money you use for the death, so why not appreciate them more when they are alive?
There are people who die everyday, some are babies, some just got married, some just got engaged, some are foetus who are yet to be born, and there are the older ones, young adults, adults, the elderly.
How many hearts are broken each day because of the passing of someone they love dearly? It makes me wonder more what we ought to do when we're still alive.
For the Lord gives, and the Lord takes.
20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.[a]
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”- Job 1:20-21 -
Monday, March 13, 2017
Away from Suffering
I used to think what it is like to lose a close one.
Back then I was too young to understand death, the pain and the grieving that occurred after it.
And now that I'm old enough to understand, the feeling shocked me. Not only for the death of my grandfather, but also the pain that my grandmother needs to endure for losing her soulmate.
One thing we were grateful is we managed to see him for the last time. And the next day, he's gone. We were expecting for his report to come out on Fri but he couldn't make it. To say that we are sad for the loss, we were even upset with his condition when he was alive.
Weak and frail, could't eat properly, I guess he lost hope with himself too.
Now that he's gone, we somehow are glad that he no longer needs to suffer. At the age of 87, what more can we ask for? We've been by his side for years longer than any others. And at the age of 85, I know that my grandmother is also grateful that she had the chance to be with my grandfather this long.
Rest in peace grandpa.
Back then I was too young to understand death, the pain and the grieving that occurred after it.
And now that I'm old enough to understand, the feeling shocked me. Not only for the death of my grandfather, but also the pain that my grandmother needs to endure for losing her soulmate.
One thing we were grateful is we managed to see him for the last time. And the next day, he's gone. We were expecting for his report to come out on Fri but he couldn't make it. To say that we are sad for the loss, we were even upset with his condition when he was alive.
Weak and frail, could't eat properly, I guess he lost hope with himself too.
Now that he's gone, we somehow are glad that he no longer needs to suffer. At the age of 87, what more can we ask for? We've been by his side for years longer than any others. And at the age of 85, I know that my grandmother is also grateful that she had the chance to be with my grandfather this long.
Rest in peace grandpa.
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Back Then
So me and my parents went to KL that day, and wanted to eat at our usual favourite hawker stalls at Jalan Imbi.
But when we reached, we saw only half of the carpark was full with hawker stalls.
Our usual porridge and char keoy teow were not available anymore, the stalls weren't there.
The only usual food that we still able to have is Yong Tau Foo.
What was served as childhood memories are now gone, are the hawkers too old to continue their business? Or there wasn't anybody who is willing to take over the business.
Soon there won't be anymore hawker stalls, or even markets, as people will be heading to shopping malls and supermarkets instead.
Why do I have the feeling that I'm growing old?
Ohhhhh yessss because I AM growing old.
But when we reached, we saw only half of the carpark was full with hawker stalls.
Our usual porridge and char keoy teow were not available anymore, the stalls weren't there.
The only usual food that we still able to have is Yong Tau Foo.
What was served as childhood memories are now gone, are the hawkers too old to continue their business? Or there wasn't anybody who is willing to take over the business.
Soon there won't be anymore hawker stalls, or even markets, as people will be heading to shopping malls and supermarkets instead.
Why do I have the feeling that I'm growing old?
Ohhhhh yessss because I AM growing old.
Sunday, January 1, 2017
01.01.17
No last emo post for the last day of 2016.
No excited post for the first day of 2017.
Because all I feel is...contented.
Contented of what I'm having, even though I still argue with my Mum a lot, even though I still don't have much to talk with my Dad, even though my bf is not the tallest, richest and handsomest bf in the universe, even though my Nek is still thinner than me, even though my job doesn't give me the highest salary in the world, even though I'm still waiting for God to answer my some of my prayers.
But I know my Mum protects me, I know my Dad loves me, I know my bf cares for me, I know my Nek gets fatter already, I know I had learned so much in my company, and I know that I will get answers from God someday, just as I always have.
Turning from 21 to 22 is not a big deal because I still had exams in January back then, it doesn't change much as my status was still a student.
But then turning from 22 to 23 is a whole lot of big deal.
My status doesn't change, from an employee to... still an employee. Just a not so newbie employee anymore.
Usually they call those who are in their early 20s as young adult. And in few more years time, the 'young' word will be stripped off, no more young anymore. Officially adult. Getting-old adult.
*Cries*
Where did my youth go? Cannot la, must achieve more things when I'm still a young adult! But I always find myself standing at the same circle, going nowhere than where I'm always been.
Need to start achieving goals instead of making them. How to make new resolutions if the old ones are still stuck underneath somewhere?
Starting by using time well. I've made a planner to avoid myself from browsing too much FB or Instagram. :D
Remember to jot it down and make it your life mantra. ;)
By the way, there wasn't much fireworks when the time reached 00:00. Spending too much in 2016, eh?
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. - Hebrews 11:6 -
No excited post for the first day of 2017.
Because all I feel is...contented.
Contented of what I'm having, even though I still argue with my Mum a lot, even though I still don't have much to talk with my Dad, even though my bf is not the tallest, richest and handsomest bf in the universe, even though my Nek is still thinner than me, even though my job doesn't give me the highest salary in the world, even though I'm still waiting for God to answer my some of my prayers.
But I know my Mum protects me, I know my Dad loves me, I know my bf cares for me, I know my Nek gets fatter already, I know I had learned so much in my company, and I know that I will get answers from God someday, just as I always have.
Turning from 21 to 22 is not a big deal because I still had exams in January back then, it doesn't change much as my status was still a student.
But then turning from 22 to 23 is a whole lot of big deal.
My status doesn't change, from an employee to... still an employee. Just a not so newbie employee anymore.
Usually they call those who are in their early 20s as young adult. And in few more years time, the 'young' word will be stripped off, no more young anymore. Officially adult. Getting-old adult.
*Cries*
Where did my youth go? Cannot la, must achieve more things when I'm still a young adult! But I always find myself standing at the same circle, going nowhere than where I'm always been.
Need to start achieving goals instead of making them. How to make new resolutions if the old ones are still stuck underneath somewhere?
Starting by using time well. I've made a planner to avoid myself from browsing too much FB or Instagram. :D
The key to success is to fully utilize our time and create more productivity.
- Quote by Jasmine Ng -
Remember to jot it down and make it your life mantra. ;)
By the way, there wasn't much fireworks when the time reached 00:00. Spending too much in 2016, eh?
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. - Hebrews 11:6 -
Sunday, December 25, 2016
Blessed Christmas 2016
Due to my company trip, we had to postpone our Ipoh trip to this Christmas week. No choice but to miss the Christmas production in Bethany!
We managed to Google a church nearby our hotel/apartment, and we wanted to ask what is the time for morning service on Sunday but it was Saturday night, so noone was in church to answer our calls.
The next morning which was Christmas Day my parents managed to call them and out of sudden I was waken by my Mum because they decided to go to church, which is Wesley Methodist Church.
We followed Waze, but it led us to a pasar pagi and we somehow got stuck in the middle. Thank God for kind people who made a way for us to escape the dead road. *wipe sweat*
Then we got confused with the road that Waze directed us, so we stopped one side and asked a taxi driver for directions, but when he saw out confused faces he decided to lead the road for us. It wasn't that far from where we asked him, but he managed to help us by not wasting unnecessary time. Like an angel sent to us just in time. Hahahaha.
A very traditional church, so we encountered a small culture shock la. Haha. We even managed to witness the baptism of few people! We also had free breakfast after the service hahahaha.
When there are challenges up ahead, do not panic as you'll encounter miracles! :D
Blessed Christmas everyone!
We managed to Google a church nearby our hotel/apartment, and we wanted to ask what is the time for morning service on Sunday but it was Saturday night, so noone was in church to answer our calls.
The next morning which was Christmas Day my parents managed to call them and out of sudden I was waken by my Mum because they decided to go to church, which is Wesley Methodist Church.
We followed Waze, but it led us to a pasar pagi and we somehow got stuck in the middle. Thank God for kind people who made a way for us to escape the dead road. *wipe sweat*
Then we got confused with the road that Waze directed us, so we stopped one side and asked a taxi driver for directions, but when he saw out confused faces he decided to lead the road for us. It wasn't that far from where we asked him, but he managed to help us by not wasting unnecessary time. Like an angel sent to us just in time. Hahahaha.
A very traditional church, so we encountered a small culture shock la. Haha. We even managed to witness the baptism of few people! We also had free breakfast after the service hahahaha.
When there are challenges up ahead, do not panic as you'll encounter miracles! :D
Blessed Christmas everyone!
John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have eternal life.
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Convocation
Being working for more than half a year, attending convocation seems a weird thing to do. Haha.
Last time we always complained, aiya soooo looooooooooooonggggg need to wait 10 months for convocation, bo mood liao la!
And today, we just attended the convocation.
Seeing people from my class, which include the junior batch, I felt like we never left university.
Began the day by registration, getting the robe and hat for the first time, having Nek in helping me to pin my hat and my robe, getting flowers from my parents (though they actually self-made one bouquet at home hahahaha), and taking family potrait.
Then rehearsal, which ended quite fast so guests were allowed to enter the hall earlier than planned.
SEGi students were seated just behind the Masters graduands of Hyper Island (not sure why a university is named that name hahahaha), so basically we didn't need to wait too long to get on stage, but we did need to wait for other graduands from other universities to get on stage haha.
AND we ended the whole ceremony early too. Not sure was it too cincai (heard that ADP's convocation has performances while we had none ahaha), but nevertheless it was just for that 5 seconds for each individual, so it was alright hahaha.
Our seniors came, Poh ah Poh came, Gajie they all came, SUMC members came.
Last time we always complained, aiya soooo looooooooooooonggggg need to wait 10 months for convocation, bo mood liao la!
And today, we just attended the convocation.
Seeing people from my class, which include the junior batch, I felt like we never left university.
Began the day by registration, getting the robe and hat for the first time, having Nek in helping me to pin my hat and my robe, getting flowers from my parents (though they actually self-made one bouquet at home hahahaha), and taking family potrait.
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| The self-made bouquet on the left and the Minnie Mouse bouquet on the right. :D |
Then rehearsal, which ended quite fast so guests were allowed to enter the hall earlier than planned.
SEGi students were seated just behind the Masters graduands of Hyper Island (not sure why a university is named that name hahahaha), so basically we didn't need to wait too long to get on stage, but we did need to wait for other graduands from other universities to get on stage haha.
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| Cheeeeseeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ PC: Nek |
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| A blur picture by my Dad when I got off the stage and went back to my place hahahahaha. |
AND we ended the whole ceremony early too. Not sure was it too cincai (heard that ADP's convocation has performances while we had none ahaha), but nevertheless it was just for that 5 seconds for each individual, so it was alright hahaha.
Our seniors came, Poh ah Poh came, Gajie they all came, SUMC members came.
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| Once I came out from the hall, they were the ones I took picture with. Glaring at the cheese tarts wishing they were mine. Hahahahaha. :P PC: Nek |
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| With Flowerboy! PC: Nek |
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| With Ah Yi. Our bear and mouse faced to our right side hahahaha. PC: Nek |
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| Me and Poh ah Poh~ Thanks for the cute pen!!! :D |
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| Me and Nek!!!!!!!! PC: Nek |
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| Gorgor, Me and Nek. :D PC: Josh Low |
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| Nek what were you doing with my robe again hahaha! |
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| Weeeeeee~!! |
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| :P |
The surprise came when I finally saw this guy (ask me where was the venue only when he arrived Sunway Clio Hotel -.-) from afar, and when I got nearer to him I saw this big bouquet of flowers. My mouth immediately hung wide open because he told me he will buy one flower and not a whole bouquet of flowers plus a bear.
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| THIS PICTURE IS SO THE VERY NICE AND ALL THANKS TO JOSH LOW!!!! |
Felt so warm and happy and blessed at the same time. Of course this is the first time receiving flowers, probably the last from him too ahhahahahaha. But that feeling will last forever! Thank you Husky! 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋
Of course not to forget to thank my parents for their love for me. Their only child is officially graduated and I know that they're so proud with me. 💕💕💕💕👪👪👪
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What's next? :D
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
Parents
I've always wanted to fly high and leave the nest whenever there's an opportunity. Maybe due to the fact of having an over-protective parent (which is spelled as M-U-M), freedom is something that I always wanted since young. If you give me a chance to live abroad and to choose between Singapore and Australia, I'll choose Australia. I remember telling my cousin because Australia is not as near to Malaysia as Singapore.
But as I grow older, even though my parents don't look thaaaaaatttt old, in reality my Mum already hit her mid 50s and my Dad his late 50s. Sooner or later, they will hit their mid and late 60s. Then 70s. Then 80s.
There are only 3 more decades left if I were to count their maximum age to 80 years old.
Time is tickling fast, the only worries that my parents have is no longer study hard and get a good job, these two items have been checked from the list. What's left is probably to marry a good husband and perhaps give birth to one or two grandchildren to play with them.
We all have conflicts with our parents, in my case is my Mum. When we're in good terms, we're like best friends but when we argue, all hell breaks loose.
I'm glad that despite the technologies around us, YouTubers didn't forget to continue emphasizing on relationships between parents and children.
To those who live with parents like me, we all have been taking our parents for granted and these videos are so great to serve as reminders; And to those who live far away from their parents, remember to go back home when you can. :)
But as I grow older, even though my parents don't look thaaaaaatttt old, in reality my Mum already hit her mid 50s and my Dad his late 50s. Sooner or later, they will hit their mid and late 60s. Then 70s. Then 80s.
There are only 3 more decades left if I were to count their maximum age to 80 years old.
Time is tickling fast, the only worries that my parents have is no longer study hard and get a good job, these two items have been checked from the list. What's left is probably to marry a good husband and perhaps give birth to one or two grandchildren to play with them.
We all have conflicts with our parents, in my case is my Mum. When we're in good terms, we're like best friends but when we argue, all hell breaks loose.
I'm glad that despite the technologies around us, YouTubers didn't forget to continue emphasizing on relationships between parents and children.
To those who live with parents like me, we all have been taking our parents for granted and these videos are so great to serve as reminders; And to those who live far away from their parents, remember to go back home when you can. :)
Friday, September 16, 2016
Sydney #4
21.06.16 - Day 6
Our second last day in Sydney, which is a free and easy day.
We wanted to go to the Fish Market which we had to pass by Chinatown and saw this restaurant:
We went to the Paddy's Market to board onto a tram to Fish Market, the world's third largest fish market.
We bought our lunch and headed to outside to eat but it was a mistake. The wind was blowing and our lunch soon turned into cold dishes. Plus the fact that the birds are lingering outside waiting to pounce on your food, which resulted in me losing my fish. -.-
After the lunch we headed back and walked along Pitt Street.
Before I forget, Australia is a place with many kangaroos which are also the symbol of Australia but I'm not sure whether it is over supply or what, they do sell food products of kangaroos and also souvenirs.
Scary scary. >.<
Oh I saw this and it looks very cute!
Honestly saying, I don't feel that good this trip. I feel like since I'm already working but I still couldn't afford to bring my parents for a holiday instead and wonder when this day can arrive. Of course it was a great experience, but deep down inside my heart I was just pondering when is the day that my parents can really sit back and relax. Sigh.
Our second last day in Sydney, which is a free and easy day.
We wanted to go to the Fish Market which we had to pass by Chinatown and saw this restaurant:
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| Malaysian Mamak lea! |
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| Look at the price, haven't convert already so the expensive. *wipe sweat* |
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| I had a dream, which is to go to Australia and sell roti canai *LOOK AT THE PRICE AGAIN* |
We went to the Paddy's Market to board onto a tram to Fish Market, the world's third largest fish market.
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| This stork stole my food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
We bought our lunch and headed to outside to eat but it was a mistake. The wind was blowing and our lunch soon turned into cold dishes. Plus the fact that the birds are lingering outside waiting to pounce on your food, which resulted in me losing my fish. -.-
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| It was a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful day! |
After the lunch we headed back and walked along Pitt Street.
At night we went for our dinner and my Dad said he still had some coins left. Then he saw people passing the restaurant that we were eating holding ice cream and wondered where did they buy the ice cream. Sure enough, the bakery beside the restaurant sells ice cream too. So we bought the black sesame one. They have matcha too but I thought my parents weren't too keen on matcha so I chose black sesame. Who knows, after that I whispered to my Dad whether we can buy another ice cream which is matcha flavour and he said yes WOOHOO! And we purposely went back to the bakery to buy, thank God it haven't closed yet. HAHAHAHAHAHA!
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| Me with Black Sesame ice cream |
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| Black Sesame ice cream alone |
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| Me with Matcha ice cream |
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| Matcha ice cream alone |
Oh I saw this and it looks very cute!
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| HAHAHA!! |
Overall, other than buying souvenirs, I bought a pair of red lace pants from Forever 21. I couldn't believe that the items sold in Chinatown are so much expensive than branded outlets like Forever 21.
I like the fact that people can just walk around the streets without fear, and because of the weather this month it's quite comfortable to go to a place by walking, can save money if you're working here. High cost of living, that's for sure.
I used to think of coming to Australia to work or study, but it's terrifying if you don't have enough money to even survive here.
They say that the grass is always greener than the other side, but temporary I don't mind if I would just stuck in Malaysia hahahahahaha.
22.06.16 - Day 7
Boarded the plane back to Malaysia, again feeling hotter than ever haha! A baby couldn't stopped crying in the plane. As passengers we would like to spend our time reading or catching some sleep and it's normal if we feel annoyed, but at the same time the mother feels worse because she doesn't know what happened to her baby and she just cried non-stop. I said a silent prayer, hoping the baby can just calm down and get some sleep, and within minutes she began to doze off, leaving her parents some peace.
Honestly saying, I don't feel that good this trip. I feel like since I'm already working but I still couldn't afford to bring my parents for a holiday instead and wonder when this day can arrive. Of course it was a great experience, but deep down inside my heart I was just pondering when is the day that my parents can really sit back and relax. Sigh.
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