Twenty-One

Last two years I figured out that I don't look like a 19/20 year old person, I don't do things which a normal 19/20 year old does. I feel like I'm not growing any older, physically and mentally.

Ever since I was like, 17, my mum will be telling me "Oh I can't believe that my daughter is already 17!" and every year without fail, telling me the same thing, the age number being the only exceptional that changes every year.

So of course, this year my mum was being dramatic again.

"OMG I really can't believe that my daughter is already 2-1! I gave birth to you 21 years ago!"

Erm, yeah, I can't believe that I'm 21 too mum.

Like what I'd said earlier, I has a lot of things that I want to do and for whatever reason I didn't start earlier, I guess it's okay to treat this year as a kick start.

The most difficult thing in doing something is to just START. After that, it ain't difficult after all.

21 or not, what matters the most is to be able to cope with changes and to be more mature in handling situations, which for me is a bit difficult because I DON'T HAVE COMMON SENSE so I often kena marah due to the way I handle petty stuff.

C'mon, common sense, please show me your love.

I used to tell my friends that I almost died when I was small due to fits, and no surgery is able to save my life so it's all depending on my own.

I was in and out of hospital few times when I was 1 or 2 years old, but I don't have any memories about it all, so sometimes I thank God that I can't recall back anything because it might be terrifying experiences being admitted to the hospital in and out, but pity my poor parents because they remember the whole processes and the fear of losing me will always be in the mind.

So! I always cherish my life and I always feel sad because people are throwing away theirs for many reasons that they thought they can't handle. I thank God for giving me the chances to live, everyday, to be able to breath, everyday. Health is wealth! Without it, I won't be able to enjoy the presence of people around me, and to do things that I like.

Being an adult doesn't mean you get all the freedom to do whatever you want.
It means you 're fully responsible in everything you do, and consequences should be aware in every actions and decisions taken.
I want to be slow to judge, be more humble, to do something which is outside my comfort zone and to give back to the society.
And I truly thank God for blessing me so much, especially my family and friends. Yeah Farrots are included too hehehe. 

Ps: Pianoboy got 1st in the current piano competition yesterday and today, and I'm sooooooooo proud. For no reason. Hahahaha. Don't ask. I'm just proud. :')


There is a place of quiet rest, near to the heart of God, a place where all is joy and peace, near to the heart of God.