Husky

It turned out that the whole SUMC committee somehow knew what's going on between me and Husky.

I just can say that, whether they are from FOBAM, ADP, SOCD or whichever faculty, they seriously have the potential to be paparazzi.

SERIOUSLY I TELL YOU.

Whenever me and Husky were sitting together (even though we're just scrolling our phones respectively, or even doing nothing!) out of sudden Husky will put on thhhaaatttttt kind of face and showed me his phone, there goes another picture of us in the Red Room Whatsapp group. This situation can just go on and on until one of us left the place. -.-

As I'm not one of the committees, I wasn't added into the Red Room group. THANK GOD I'M NOT IN THE GROUP. Though they did want to add me in but in the end didn't. No need la no need la. Add me in to update me about my own gossip only. -.-



Though today, I was a weeeeee biiiitttttt upset with Husky. It seemed to be a small thing, and I thought I don't mind, but when I reached home, I can't stop thinking about it and realised that, yes, I actually do mind.

So, as the most straight forward person on earth (ehem), I told him what I felt and blah blah blah. I hate playing mind games. Like, you guess la what I'm thinking? I say yes but actually it's a no~ You need to be smart enough to analyse and interpret what do my words meant.

Ish. Waste of time and energy. I got half year more only. To be with him I mean. Not to be alive.



A week ago, though I was chatting everyday with him, but I felt something empty, felt something hollow. And wonder how far will this kind of relationship takes us? It seems... unreal. It's like I almost can forget how it is like to be with him, face-to-face. After Unplugged Night, I stop going to their house for practices so our connection kinda cut out since then.

Then I saw him two days ago, never mind, I'll just skip that day.

Then I got to talk to him yesterday, and realise that the guy that I know 2 months ago is still there, and didn't become a stranger to me. So I was kinda relieved.

And I can't stop wondering which part of me made him to be the most silliest person on earth to enter the lion's den. Hahahahahahahahaha.



At the end, it's still myself that I could not trust. Though I must admit, I like it a lot when I'm with you. Because I can be myself and that's what I wish for. My silliness, my dumb dumbness, my stupid questions and easy to get angry when annoyed were already displayed in front of you since the day I knew you. I just don't really dare to go a step further because I don't want the history to repeat and I certainly do not wish to treat you the way I treated him 5 years ago.


So... anyway, to end this post, I decided to quote Nek's so-called wissseee wordsssss, because she will be complaining that I dumped her for Husky blah blah blah not to mention how many times I was dumped because she was with who or who and did I mention the Guinness Black Stout HAHAHAHAHAHAHA sorry I couldn't help but remember this incident FOREVER.

Ehem, so this was what she said today. Please read it with full emotion. Sorry I just need to edit her grammar mistakes tak boleh tahan.

"But to fall in love, two people need the process of communication, to understand each other and etc.

 Not everyone get to find the one who suits each other."


Lord, it's our tendency to hide our sins and flaws. May we come to You in full honesty, understanding that we are loved and forgiven by You.