2020

This is the year I’m turning 26 years old.

I don’t know bout you, but to me, Wednesday means it’s going to be weekends soon. And 26 year old means I’m reaching 30 year old soon.

25 years old was still a going-to-be-an-adult-but-not-quite-adult age for me. It was a trial and error year because I feel that I’m still young and I can still keep trying things.

But when 2020 is here, I was just suddenly awaken to the reality that, hey, I’m an adult already, gotta take responsibility seriously now. In 5 years time I probably be someone’s wife, someone’s mum, someone’s boss, my parents are getting older and I haven’t achieve anything big yet.

I still have a lot of to-do lists, and my goal to be healthier and slimmer has again being brought forward to this year. And I failed to attend at least 1 workshop in The Craft Crowd last year, be it modern calligraphy or brush lettering.

Why are goals not achieved? Maybe because we’re not serious about it and we have the tendency of making excuses to do it later. Later this week, this month, this year. Before you know it, poof, 2019 has disappeared and you have no power to bring it back.

Breaking down goals make it seemingly easier to achieve. Just like running marathon, achieving 2km bit by bit is far more easier than running 42km straight. But the goal remains: to finish the race.

And nope, running a marathon is never on my list. Bahaha.

Reading a book a month, yes. A lot of times I find myself wasting so much time on social media browsing other people’s stories that I didn’t use it fully to at least read a chapter a day.

I also promise myself something: that when I’m indecisive, I’ll choose the tough road. Then I’ll stop wasting time weighing the decisions. But instead when decision is made firmly, I’ll focus more on what to do and how to do to achieve it. ALSO, I’ll put in 110% of effort in doing something, and leave the results to God. It’ll save me so much of heartache and sleepless nights, knowing that I’ve already done my best and let God take care of the rest. Many times I didn’t put in maximum effort and only did the surface job, which causes a lot of  “if only I’ve done that, if only I’ve done this” regretfulness.

Also! I want to get a hobby, probably reading fiction books to release stress. I’ve been focusing too much on work last year, and due to lack of discipline, I always drag my work and do useless stuff.  So I would also like to set a timeline for everything, so that things can be done within the timeline and do not bring too much of future stuff to do it now. And allocate maybe half or one hour for reading just to take my mind off work.

Basically I would like to practice no wasting time this year, and see a change in my result.

Cheers!